why do i count constantly

[ewwgrapes]

so last night i had the wonderfulness of awkwardness! sometimes i like the tension but its starting to be more apparent. anyhow this weekend was simple, ben and i went out to eat and i got this salad and ordered it without heart of palms and olives but it came with like 4 heart of palms and i ate it and tried it and decided that i shouldn't order my salad without them ever again! and i'll still stay with my original no olives.. yuck! we ended up meeting up with benmys' friends at the british pub, they seemed like very nice people that like to hold my hand :) two different people there reminded me of the same person.. weird! Saturday night ben and i ended the night playing sorry i was blue he was green i won of corse! it was VERY close and some weird cards showing up.. dun dun dun , ding ding ding , sunday morning talks with benmy. i guess he said it best when he said he is set in his ways and isn't ever going to compromise.. whats a girl left to do? my gut is telling me to move on but my heart is reminding me that i'm still in love with the moment, after all thats all you have. i really like that boy, but if we both want different things and feel very strongly about it, wouldn't i be sparing heart ache later on? certain points of the conversation ring in my head so much that i'm thankful for a moment of peace and quite or anything that can keep me occupied.. like cutting hair or the quick marg... i met up with MCMG and cut his hair and after we went to rositas and got some fancy margarita but MCMG kept calling it a quick marg cause he was just one break in between him film hes helping some students do :) my sister and i were driving out in the middle of no where last night and we were singing every single song that came on the radio :) it was great:)
daily quote
"I'm on a serious mission to find all my homies who don't even know me"