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right now i am wondering whether or not i should insist that my friends call me by my lj name when they see me in person. i think that it is a novel idea that many have tried and succeeded at. i think ewokvsraptor suits me. even though i was christened with what many insist is a unique name, i used to really want to change it.
when i was nine i changed my name to "owl" for a day. the name "owl" i feel really captured my true essence. it's true. the other reason i changed it for a day was to make a point. my best friend's five year old sister had changed her name to "bear", because of a dream she had had in which her father was a bear. i was attending an extremely alternative school at the time, and a five year old changing her name was widely accepted.
a nine year old changing hers was not. my friend laughed my new name off and it hardly lasted the day. it really pissed me off that people wouldn't accept my new name. my best friend thought it was stupid.
i no longer go by "owl", but i continue to do things in an attempt to prove various points.
the purpose of my name change as a child was different than the many reasons people change their names as adults. i thought my new name would be cool and it was surprisingly shot down.
i just read a zine about intentional self-amputation. it described how some people feel that certain appendages of theirs don't seem to belong with the rest of their body. they go to great lengths to get rid of their unwanted fingers, arms, and legs. in some cases, if a person was unable to secure a surgical amputation performed by a doctor, they would consider using a chainsaw or train for the amputation.
it was a disturbing read, but an interesting topic to learn about. apparently there has been a rise in self-amputation interest since the advent of the internet, providing self-amputees and their admirers with fetish websites and other information.
- ewokvsraptor (formerly owl)
right now i am wondering whether or not i should insist that my friends call me by my lj name when they see me in person. i think that it is a novel idea that many have tried and succeeded at. i think ewokvsraptor suits me. even though i was christened with what many insist is a unique name, i used to really want to change it.
when i was nine i changed my name to "owl" for a day. the name "owl" i feel really captured my true essence. it's true. the other reason i changed it for a day was to make a point. my best friend's five year old sister had changed her name to "bear", because of a dream she had had in which her father was a bear. i was attending an extremely alternative school at the time, and a five year old changing her name was widely accepted.
a nine year old changing hers was not. my friend laughed my new name off and it hardly lasted the day. it really pissed me off that people wouldn't accept my new name. my best friend thought it was stupid.
i no longer go by "owl", but i continue to do things in an attempt to prove various points.
the purpose of my name change as a child was different than the many reasons people change their names as adults. i thought my new name would be cool and it was surprisingly shot down.
i just read a zine about intentional self-amputation. it described how some people feel that certain appendages of theirs don't seem to belong with the rest of their body. they go to great lengths to get rid of their unwanted fingers, arms, and legs. in some cases, if a person was unable to secure a surgical amputation performed by a doctor, they would consider using a chainsaw or train for the amputation.
it was a disturbing read, but an interesting topic to learn about. apparently there has been a rise in self-amputation interest since the advent of the internet, providing self-amputees and their admirers with fetish websites and other information.
- ewokvsraptor (formerly owl)