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So I've realized that its been a full year since last updating in this journal. went through my friends list, did some house cleaning, and here i am. The last update was a survey, haha i did a lot of those since i didn't want to officially write a diary, but a survey was the perfect means of talking about my life without talking about my life. Lame. But anyways the purpose of this post is to copy paste that old survey i did a year ago, and see what changed. thoughts/different answers are in parenthesis cause idk how to the thing where i talk in different colors.
1. Obsessed with sex?
yup i have it all the time (haha so cocky but unfunny now that i read it)
2. Are you tall?
nah (my mother says i grew since last semester.)
3. In your pajamas?
never owned a pair. (thermals for the win)
4. Left handed?
damn i wish (still wish it)
LAST:
1. Friend you saw?
um...ana? (nikhil or peter, roommates from india and philly respectively)
2. Talked to on the phone?
um...aida (my mother <3)
3. Person to leave you a text message?
jessie (ari)
4. Was today better then yesterday?
nah (classes started today so that was cool. but yesterday i watched the biggie movie and did other cool, fun stuff, so its the same answer.)
FAVORITE:
1. Number?
18
2. Season?
winter. love jackets (still true!!)
QUESTIONS:
1. What was the first thing you did this morning after you got up?
put my alarm on snooze.
2. Do you have anything bothering you?
my english essays, which by the way i'm ignoring. (yeah but i guess i don't let it bother me)
3. What's the last movie you watched in theaters and who'd you watch it with?
cloverfield. pat and joel (NOTORIOUS with peter and greg)
4. Where is the last place you went?
dad's office (the gym motherfuckers!)
5. Do you smile often?
hahaha no (<--thats a contradicting statement. but yeah shits good in NY)
6. Do you wish upon stars?
no
7. Where did you sleep last night?
in my bed. not enough though
8. Why did you sleep there?
i think cause i just collapsed. (haha same)
9. When was the last time you cried?
dont remember (ummm a while ago)
10. What are you about to do?
write another essay (read about russian history, shower, masturbate, syke)
11. What do you hear right now?
music (Biggie)
12. What's your favorite month?
may or december. (i don't like may or december anymore cause thats when i leave school. hmm.)
13. How many kids do you want/have?
as of right now. zero (in the future? 2 is pretty good.)
TEN FACTS
1. Hometown:
Modesto
2. Natural hair color:
black
3. Height:
average
4. Eye color:
brown
7. Lefty/Righty:
right
8. Favorite color[s]:
blue (salmon is gross) :)
10. Have you ever LOVED someone so much it hurt?
long long time ago (and quite recently yeah)
11. What do you want to do when you grow up?
entrepreneur/something with bio (hahaha fuck bio)
12. Are you a frog?
lasdkfj
13. Have you ever had your heart broken?:
yup sure (twice now i guess)
15. If you could go back in time and change things would you?
yeah i would
17. Do you believe that every one deserves a second chance?
you know, even if i didnt believe that i still would give people second chances. (that didnt change. but after like the 8th time i kinda give up)
18. Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend?
hahahahah..........sure (i'm so weird)
19. Like anyone right now?:
sure (no?)
22. What did you do LAST night?:
idk (played beer pong, got high, whoo)
23. How do you feel right now?
tired but wired (good)
FIRSTS:
24. First piercing: dick (??????????)
25. First failing grade: none
26. sport you joined: LACROSSE
27. First pet: dog
28. First vacation: china?
29. First love: mm tough question. (haha)
30. First crush: lololololol rene (haha wtf)
CURRENTLY
49. Eating: nothing
50. Drinking: coffee (nothing)
52. I'm about to: adfasf (do homework)
58. Want kids? asdfasdf (sureee)
59. Want to get married? eh..sure (sureee)
WHICH IS BETTER FOR A BF/GF?
68. Lips or eyes: eyes
69. Hugs or kisses: both
70. Older or Younger: younger
72. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous
73. Nice stomach or nice arms: i dont care (stomach haha)
74. Taller or shorter: shorter
HAVE YOU EVER:
78. Kissed a stranger: i guess,kinda (no?? or i dont remember haha)
79. Drank bubbles: no
81. Worn contacts: yup
85. Been in trouble with the cops: no (yes)
86. Turned someone down: yes :(
87. Cried when someone died: no (nobody has died close to me)
88. Lost a friend: yeah (yeah man, it fucking sucks.)
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. The Easter Bunny:
no
90. Miracles:
kinda, more like. at the right place at the right time.
91. Love at first sight:
no
93. Santa Claus:
no
94. Sex on the first date:
it wouldnt be smart (its fine...haha)
95. Kiss on the first date:
sure
97. Abortion:
pro-choice
98. Do you think its an addicts fault they are addicted?:
for the most part (well of course theres environmental factors, economic factors, geographic factors, blah blah, i think most cases are individualistic, but i'm too lazy to get into stuff like that.)
100. Are you in love right now?
dont think so (no)
100. Are you in a relationship?:
no...i believe. (wtf am i saying?)
99. What's your profile song and why?
knights in paris. cause they're suave. (i don't have a myspace anymore, whooo fuck that)
98. Do you have a job?
yeah (NO)
97. Do you have a crush on someone?
sure (mmm not really..idk maybe haha)
96. Lied in the last 24 hours?
probably (i dont think so)
95. What is your current ring tone?
just a ring (Juicy - Notorious B.I.G.)
94. Where was the last place you took a plane to?
NY, NY. (oh shit same answer)
93. What is the last movie you watched?
cloverfield (BIGGIE)
92. What makes you mad?
school. bitches. (haha school doesnt make me mad anymore, just bitches)
91. Name?
eric
87. Do you have any siblings?
alex
86. What are you doing?
hustlin' (damn right haha)
84. What does the 7th message in ur inbox say on your phone?
Bitch. oh my god. guess who just texted me? yann. (Wheres your 2oclock class? - from court. and leave it up to jessie to tell me who just texted her, like wtf :p)
83. Are you happy?
whats happy (god i was a condescending cunt. but im getting better. i'm okay right now)
82. What is sitting to your left right now?
laptop, phone, remote, books, paper. (body butter, The Audacity of Hope, watch, alarmclock)
81. Where is your dad right now?
in his room. (in china)
80. Do you have any kids?
nahh
79. Who is the 5th person you got a missed call from on your cell phone?
jessie (idk too lazy to check)
78. Closest black object?
wallet (my cock. HAHAHAHA)
76. What song are you listening to?
Anxiety. Anxieties. (notorious b.i.g. - juicy)
75. Do you sing in the shower?
if i feel like it
72. Last time you listened to country music?
by choice, never
67. How many drugs are in your system now?
i think one (what drugs were i taking back then? haha retard. right now in my current body, prescription and other, like 2.)
64. Last person to comment you?
jessie
63. Do you sing?
sure haha yeah
62. Screamo or country?
screamo i guess
61. Rock or rap?
gangster rap
and indie rock or just Brand New. (alls good)
60. What are you listening to now?
asfdasdf (Notorious B.I.G. - Everyday Struggle)
59. Who did you last call?
jessie (Peter)
55. Who was the last person you hugged?
er...ana..? or britney. (Nikhil)
53. Latest thing you've decided?
umm. idk (going to dinner with court)
52. Are you cold now?
my feet are (no)
51. What do you smell?
nothing (pussy)
50. Is anything bothering you right now?
asfasdf (mmm nah)
48. What are you doing tomorrow?
fucking school. fucking essays. fucking idk. (going to school, gonna have a good day hopefully.)
So i discovered that i didn't change MUCH. but i pretended to be all jaded back then but i guess i'm even more jaded now. ha. but i think as a result i feel better now, cause things can jsut get better right? right.
1. Obsessed with sex?
yup i have it all the time (haha so cocky but unfunny now that i read it)
2. Are you tall?
nah (my mother says i grew since last semester.)
3. In your pajamas?
never owned a pair. (thermals for the win)
4. Left handed?
damn i wish (still wish it)
LAST:
1. Friend you saw?
um...ana? (nikhil or peter, roommates from india and philly respectively)
2. Talked to on the phone?
um...aida (my mother <3)
3. Person to leave you a text message?
jessie (ari)
4. Was today better then yesterday?
nah (classes started today so that was cool. but yesterday i watched the biggie movie and did other cool, fun stuff, so its the same answer.)
FAVORITE:
1. Number?
18
2. Season?
winter. love jackets (still true!!)
QUESTIONS:
1. What was the first thing you did this morning after you got up?
put my alarm on snooze.
2. Do you have anything bothering you?
my english essays, which by the way i'm ignoring. (yeah but i guess i don't let it bother me)
3. What's the last movie you watched in theaters and who'd you watch it with?
cloverfield. pat and joel (NOTORIOUS with peter and greg)
4. Where is the last place you went?
dad's office (the gym motherfuckers!)
5. Do you smile often?
hahaha no (<--thats a contradicting statement. but yeah shits good in NY)
6. Do you wish upon stars?
no
7. Where did you sleep last night?
in my bed. not enough though
8. Why did you sleep there?
i think cause i just collapsed. (haha same)
9. When was the last time you cried?
dont remember (ummm a while ago)
10. What are you about to do?
write another essay (read about russian history, shower, masturbate, syke)
11. What do you hear right now?
music (Biggie)
12. What's your favorite month?
may or december. (i don't like may or december anymore cause thats when i leave school. hmm.)
13. How many kids do you want/have?
as of right now. zero (in the future? 2 is pretty good.)
TEN FACTS
1. Hometown:
Modesto
2. Natural hair color:
black
3. Height:
average
4. Eye color:
brown
7. Lefty/Righty:
right
8. Favorite color[s]:
blue (salmon is gross) :)
10. Have you ever LOVED someone so much it hurt?
long long time ago (and quite recently yeah)
11. What do you want to do when you grow up?
entrepreneur/something with bio (hahaha fuck bio)
12. Are you a frog?
lasdkfj
13. Have you ever had your heart broken?:
yup sure (twice now i guess)
15. If you could go back in time and change things would you?
yeah i would
17. Do you believe that every one deserves a second chance?
you know, even if i didnt believe that i still would give people second chances. (that didnt change. but after like the 8th time i kinda give up)
18. Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend?
hahahahah..........sure (i'm so weird)
19. Like anyone right now?:
sure (no?)
22. What did you do LAST night?:
idk (played beer pong, got high, whoo)
23. How do you feel right now?
tired but wired (good)
FIRSTS:
24. First piercing: dick (??????????)
25. First failing grade: none
26. sport you joined: LACROSSE
27. First pet: dog
28. First vacation: china?
29. First love: mm tough question. (haha)
30. First crush: lololololol rene (haha wtf)
CURRENTLY
49. Eating: nothing
50. Drinking: coffee (nothing)
52. I'm about to: adfasf (do homework)
58. Want kids? asdfasdf (sureee)
59. Want to get married? eh..sure (sureee)
WHICH IS BETTER FOR A BF/GF?
68. Lips or eyes: eyes
69. Hugs or kisses: both
70. Older or Younger: younger
72. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous
73. Nice stomach or nice arms: i dont care (stomach haha)
74. Taller or shorter: shorter
HAVE YOU EVER:
78. Kissed a stranger: i guess,kinda (no?? or i dont remember haha)
79. Drank bubbles: no
81. Worn contacts: yup
85. Been in trouble with the cops: no (yes)
86. Turned someone down: yes :(
87. Cried when someone died: no (nobody has died close to me)
88. Lost a friend: yeah (yeah man, it fucking sucks.)
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. The Easter Bunny:
no
90. Miracles:
kinda, more like. at the right place at the right time.
91. Love at first sight:
no
93. Santa Claus:
no
94. Sex on the first date:
it wouldnt be smart (its fine...haha)
95. Kiss on the first date:
sure
97. Abortion:
pro-choice
98. Do you think its an addicts fault they are addicted?:
for the most part (well of course theres environmental factors, economic factors, geographic factors, blah blah, i think most cases are individualistic, but i'm too lazy to get into stuff like that.)
100. Are you in love right now?
dont think so (no)
100. Are you in a relationship?:
no...i believe. (wtf am i saying?)
99. What's your profile song and why?
knights in paris. cause they're suave. (i don't have a myspace anymore, whooo fuck that)
98. Do you have a job?
yeah (NO)
97. Do you have a crush on someone?
sure (mmm not really..idk maybe haha)
96. Lied in the last 24 hours?
probably (i dont think so)
95. What is your current ring tone?
just a ring (Juicy - Notorious B.I.G.)
94. Where was the last place you took a plane to?
NY, NY. (oh shit same answer)
93. What is the last movie you watched?
cloverfield (BIGGIE)
92. What makes you mad?
school. bitches. (haha school doesnt make me mad anymore, just bitches)
91. Name?
eric
87. Do you have any siblings?
alex
86. What are you doing?
hustlin' (damn right haha)
84. What does the 7th message in ur inbox say on your phone?
Bitch. oh my god. guess who just texted me? yann. (Wheres your 2oclock class? - from court. and leave it up to jessie to tell me who just texted her, like wtf :p)
83. Are you happy?
whats happy (god i was a condescending cunt. but im getting better. i'm okay right now)
82. What is sitting to your left right now?
laptop, phone, remote, books, paper. (body butter, The Audacity of Hope, watch, alarmclock)
81. Where is your dad right now?
in his room. (in china)
80. Do you have any kids?
nahh
79. Who is the 5th person you got a missed call from on your cell phone?
jessie (idk too lazy to check)
78. Closest black object?
wallet (my cock. HAHAHAHA)
76. What song are you listening to?
Anxiety. Anxieties. (notorious b.i.g. - juicy)
75. Do you sing in the shower?
if i feel like it
72. Last time you listened to country music?
by choice, never
67. How many drugs are in your system now?
i think one (what drugs were i taking back then? haha retard. right now in my current body, prescription and other, like 2.)
64. Last person to comment you?
jessie
63. Do you sing?
sure haha yeah
62. Screamo or country?
screamo i guess
61. Rock or rap?
gangster rap
and indie rock or just Brand New. (alls good)
60. What are you listening to now?
asfdasdf (Notorious B.I.G. - Everyday Struggle)
59. Who did you last call?
jessie (Peter)
55. Who was the last person you hugged?
er...ana..? or britney. (Nikhil)
53. Latest thing you've decided?
umm. idk (going to dinner with court)
52. Are you cold now?
my feet are (no)
51. What do you smell?
nothing (pussy)
50. Is anything bothering you right now?
asfasdf (mmm nah)
48. What are you doing tomorrow?
fucking school. fucking essays. fucking idk. (going to school, gonna have a good day hopefully.)
So i discovered that i didn't change MUCH. but i pretended to be all jaded back then but i guess i'm even more jaded now. ha. but i think as a result i feel better now, cause things can jsut get better right? right.