This week. It can die.
This week has been so long and it's still not over. I feel like I've been holding space for others well past my capacity limit. The week started with Adam realizing that a deadline at work was actually a week sooner and I took on even more of the childcare (losing my two mornings a week to read/write), plus Adam's volleyball leagues started again so I had two nights this week on solo bedtime duty. Adam had a real clusterfuck of triggering miscommunication with his work. And then his computer died. Adam handled all of this especially gracefully, but it was still very intense.
This week Astrid also decided to sleep like shit. I held space for some more people too, both in person and online. I cooked delicious food all week.
I'm glad that I've been in a good, even-keeled place. But today.... it's catching up with me. Adam is having his weekly skype date with his bestie in London and the kids are doing great, but I want no one to talk to me, touch me, need me. My temper is short. I am DONE.
SO tired.
On the positive side of things, Olympia in the fall is beautiful indeed. It's good to have people in my life that I see strong, developing friendships. My kids are happy. This is a *good* place for us.
This week Astrid also decided to sleep like shit. I held space for some more people too, both in person and online. I cooked delicious food all week.
I'm glad that I've been in a good, even-keeled place. But today.... it's catching up with me. Adam is having his weekly skype date with his bestie in London and the kids are doing great, but I want no one to talk to me, touch me, need me. My temper is short. I am DONE.
SO tired.
On the positive side of things, Olympia in the fall is beautiful indeed. It's good to have people in my life that I see strong, developing friendships. My kids are happy. This is a *good* place for us.