Arggg...

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You know something...I don't think I am cut out to be a friend. I don't know what it is about me, but it seems that people think I am fun and all that, but then as they get to know me more and more, they decide they don't like me anymore. Is it just something about me? Or is that just something I have to deal with? I don't get it. It really upsets me though. Even the people who I think know me really well turn out to not really know me. I am always so misunderstood. It is just annoying how many people just don't get me. I swear, of everyone I thought knew me, turns out I've got one. Even after I try really hard, be the best friend I know how...it isn't good enough. Somehow, I am still not good enough. I don't know what I do that is so wrong.
People say that I come off as arrogant when I try to share what i have learned or whatever. Yet another example of when I am misunderstood. When I share my thoughts it is only because I am excited about it and want to share with others what I have learned. Not because I think my way is the best way, just because for me, it is exciting and such so I am sharing it for that reason. I just want to somehow share the love of God with people, and manage to keep some friends in the process. That is all. I just want to be the best person I can. I'm sorry that it doesn't seem that way. I really am trying...I just hope that one day I can learn how to just live. Anyway...yeah. Just annoying, but I'll live! =)