And the moods just keep changing...
Ok...so lately I've been feeling generally just unhappy with myself. Lots and lots of insecurities. I don't know where they are all coming from, but what I do know is that they are messing with my head, and thus messing up lots of things in my life, namely, Chris. Not that we are messed up, but because I am so insecure of late, it is starting to have it's toll on him I think. I don't know what to do. I just feel like with him, nothing is ever enough...no time is ever enough, and he doesn't love me enough, and just on and on. All lies. This I know...they are lies. Because he does love me. I just don't know how to get rid of the lies. They are driving me crazy. I just want to be peaceful again. Is that too much to ask? I think not. I feel so terrible because nothing I can say to him fixes things, and yet I have this incredible desire to just talk to him so that he can fix it all for me. Mostly because I have no idea how to fix it myself. I just want to be happy darn it!
Maybe it is pms talking. Or maybe there is something that I've done that has allowed this horrible way of thinking to enter my brain. Could you all please pray for me? Pray really hard that whatever this is that is messing up my life will go away from me and let me live in peace. I know that I can get through it. I just wish I could see how. Rar. I hate this. Really I do. Hate is not a good feeling. Neither is insecurity and all that goes with it. *sigh* Ok....back to work. Thanks for listening.
Maybe it is pms talking. Or maybe there is something that I've done that has allowed this horrible way of thinking to enter my brain. Could you all please pray for me? Pray really hard that whatever this is that is messing up my life will go away from me and let me live in peace. I know that I can get through it. I just wish I could see how. Rar. I hate this. Really I do. Hate is not a good feeling. Neither is insecurity and all that goes with it. *sigh* Ok....back to work. Thanks for listening.