hi
I think its odd how i can go from happy to sad..to happy..to sad again . which is exactly what happened today. crazyy mood swings. people are stupide. not my class schools good except were still there.. i had an oral test in french which i did 'PARFAIT' ..so le professeur said. je n'etudie pas quand toute le monde etudent. c'ete facile. im too good in french.. i cant wait til the day im fluent and stoof so i can just confuse people..we had a full on conversation a francais..it was AWESOME. haha. yea i love french i dunno why..i like to speak/read it but HATE to write it.. i dunno. yeah..
finals start on friday.. i think im gonna study just so i can end the year with a BANG. and hopefully get on the honor roll. id love that. i could too cuz right now i have an 80 in math..jesus! i never thought that could happen. i got into honors english..but not honors math..ooh well i hate math with a passion. next years gonna be so different cuz all the teachers are leaving..yea so its a very stressful week and uh.. end of school year. i want it to be july 1st.. RIGHT NOW.
as for the mood swing thing..je ne sais pas. i guess i am jealous bout stoof cuz i feel tres PETITE. i dunno. like im not good enough? for anyone? hmm.. just cuz o my looks c'est stupide. i mean id rather have a person whos good and nice than a person whos just pretty/cute whatever you wanna call it. i dont check people out anyways id like anyone as long as theyre funny and nice ya knoo.. i just wanna kinda get along with his family but no they gotta be stupid they dont realize that theyre all FAT LAZY PEOPLE who stay in the house and have no friends..JESUS.. haha ok my angers out..yet i still dont hate her. its impossible for me to hate anyone...i think. and its weird cuz i was thinkin bout breakin up with my petit ami..he deserves better than moi and make his family happy i can be happy with what i have.......and thats part of another reason why we havent..yeahh..cuz je ne sais pas if its gonna last..but i love him. i cant tell him anything though..or anyone anything bout how i feel and stoof and that really makes him mad.. idont like him when hes mad it scares me beaucoup cuz then hed probly do something stupide.. and leave me there, tu sais? i dunno. i just wish i was better.
ahh..its retarded i cant write anything good anymore..like poems theyre all terrible..my creativity is gone i should just give up on my book stoof cuz no1s gonna like eet...i dunno what i wanna be. mon stomique hurts =( again. its been hurtin for like 2 weeks all cuz of stress and..my mood swings i guess. im fine when im happy but when i get sad my stomique hurts a ton more than what it did.. i wanna feel normal =/
finals start on friday.. i think im gonna study just so i can end the year with a BANG. and hopefully get on the honor roll. id love that. i could too cuz right now i have an 80 in math..jesus! i never thought that could happen. i got into honors english..but not honors math..ooh well i hate math with a passion. next years gonna be so different cuz all the teachers are leaving..yea so its a very stressful week and uh.. end of school year. i want it to be july 1st.. RIGHT NOW.
as for the mood swing thing..je ne sais pas. i guess i am jealous bout stoof cuz i feel tres PETITE. i dunno. like im not good enough? for anyone? hmm.. just cuz o my looks c'est stupide. i mean id rather have a person whos good and nice than a person whos just pretty/cute whatever you wanna call it. i dont check people out anyways id like anyone as long as theyre funny and nice ya knoo.. i just wanna kinda get along with his family but no they gotta be stupid they dont realize that theyre all FAT LAZY PEOPLE who stay in the house and have no friends..JESUS.. haha ok my angers out..yet i still dont hate her. its impossible for me to hate anyone...i think. and its weird cuz i was thinkin bout breakin up with my petit ami..he deserves better than moi and make his family happy i can be happy with what i have.......and thats part of another reason why we havent..yeahh..cuz je ne sais pas if its gonna last..but i love him. i cant tell him anything though..or anyone anything bout how i feel and stoof and that really makes him mad.. idont like him when hes mad it scares me beaucoup cuz then hed probly do something stupide.. and leave me there, tu sais? i dunno. i just wish i was better.
ahh..its retarded i cant write anything good anymore..like poems theyre all terrible..my creativity is gone i should just give up on my book stoof cuz no1s gonna like eet...i dunno what i wanna be. mon stomique hurts =( again. its been hurtin for like 2 weeks all cuz of stress and..my mood swings i guess. im fine when im happy but when i get sad my stomique hurts a ton more than what it did.. i wanna feel normal =/