Gorge
I've been eating a ton lately. I think I'm starting to get sick of being a thin guy. I read that it's as hard for some people to gain weight, as it is for some to lose it. Hrm.
Another thing that's a little wierd is the whole seperation thing from Danniell. I'm not exactly so depressed I can't move, but I can't help but feel a twinge of nostalgia when I think of all the things that her and I have been through. It was hard for me to remember things while I was with her, but that really isn't the case anymore. I remember having a goal and a drive, but somewhere over the last year it somehow dissipitated and I lost it. There are times I'll sit and think, and remember, and sometimes almost get a small lump in my throat when I realize that almost as far back as I can clearly remember, that she was around. However, she isn't anymore.
Someone pointed out that I always walk with my face down. I'm not sure that means anything. I woke up and got a chance to talk to a great friend for the first time in a really, really long time... That set the tone for the day. Overall, Friday was good because of it.
However... there's still that lingering feeling, that I feel, almost as if you woke up, pulled yourself out of bed, unable to shake that drowsy feeling. It's just there, no matter what I try and divert my thought process to. Most of the time, I just try and ignore it. Put it in a jar and slide it out of the way. A near five year chapter isn't so easy to shake. There are times that I really wish I still had a girlfriend, though. Pre-warmed sheets are awesome.
Another thing that's a little wierd is the whole seperation thing from Danniell. I'm not exactly so depressed I can't move, but I can't help but feel a twinge of nostalgia when I think of all the things that her and I have been through. It was hard for me to remember things while I was with her, but that really isn't the case anymore. I remember having a goal and a drive, but somewhere over the last year it somehow dissipitated and I lost it. There are times I'll sit and think, and remember, and sometimes almost get a small lump in my throat when I realize that almost as far back as I can clearly remember, that she was around. However, she isn't anymore.
Someone pointed out that I always walk with my face down. I'm not sure that means anything. I woke up and got a chance to talk to a great friend for the first time in a really, really long time... That set the tone for the day. Overall, Friday was good because of it.
However... there's still that lingering feeling, that I feel, almost as if you woke up, pulled yourself out of bed, unable to shake that drowsy feeling. It's just there, no matter what I try and divert my thought process to. Most of the time, I just try and ignore it. Put it in a jar and slide it out of the way. A near five year chapter isn't so easy to shake. There are times that I really wish I still had a girlfriend, though. Pre-warmed sheets are awesome.