Yup
Well the week is finally over umm lets see what's new and exciting nothing really I really need to go to the mall I have money and I'm really in a spending mood. Monday starts my babysitting gig it's only until summer starts but hey it's something to do since well the life I thought I had really isn't that much of a life since my boyfriend doesn't know how to use the freaking phone ok anyways I'm getting rather fed up really fast because you know how it is when you realize that you do care about the person that you're with but there is someone else that has you totally captivated yeah I seriously have issues I swear I'm incapable of being happy it's like this is something that I've wanted for years really years and now I'm freaking out about something that could be great but will never happen I just don't know anymore really I swear boys say we're complicated please when I like someone I go straight out and say something if I know that they like me too but no not them they need to wait months and months then finally at the most inoppertune time they are like oh yeah I liked you god its like either say it when you mean it or don't say it at all all that does is hurt more than you could ever comprehend. I so hope this stupid stuff doesn't screw up my relationship honsetly I am happy I do care about him but there is still this small part of me that is screaming you know you don't love him this isn't fair to him but then when I'm with him its like nothing else matters and everything is great I donno maybe I do love him in some weird wacked out way since I'm so freaking jealous of any girl that is around him but I know that I don't love him in the serious comitted way I just don't get it anymore well I'm gonna go wallow in self pitty
<3 Britt
<3 Britt