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I haven't written in a while cause I've been busy with school and stuff like that.
I hate fighting with friends. Especially with my best friend. Elainea won't talk to me now because I told her that she was self-centered sometimes. I only said this because I was sick of being treated like crap by her. She only comes to me when she needs something done, but when I ask her something the very rare occassions I do she won't do it for me. So when I don't do something 1 time she gets mad! So I told her my opinion and she got mad. I tried apologizing and she still mad. So I give up! Just like I give up on everything! I have lost my best friend, my dog (yes she got hit by a car today to top things off!), i lost my boyfriend a while ago but I'm still including this, I lost my smile, I lost my sense of humor, I lost my $60 I earned for working my butt off, I lost my old friends, I lost my ability to love, I lost my mother's trust, and I lost my desire to stay kickin. And yet I do b/c it wouldn't be the right thing to do to just kill myself. Some people my actually care. A small number but there's a few out there. Atleast I hope there is. If there's not then there's another thing I lost, my ability to judge who's really my friend and who isn't. That's all for now folks! Elainea you can say whatever you want if you think I'm a drama queen I don't give a shit! You hurt me. I tried being your friend elainea but you can't see the people that love you that are right in front of you. You push them away and go to other people. Toodles all who don't read this!
XOXO Allison XOXO
I hate fighting with friends. Especially with my best friend. Elainea won't talk to me now because I told her that she was self-centered sometimes. I only said this because I was sick of being treated like crap by her. She only comes to me when she needs something done, but when I ask her something the very rare occassions I do she won't do it for me. So when I don't do something 1 time she gets mad! So I told her my opinion and she got mad. I tried apologizing and she still mad. So I give up! Just like I give up on everything! I have lost my best friend, my dog (yes she got hit by a car today to top things off!), i lost my boyfriend a while ago but I'm still including this, I lost my smile, I lost my sense of humor, I lost my $60 I earned for working my butt off, I lost my old friends, I lost my ability to love, I lost my mother's trust, and I lost my desire to stay kickin. And yet I do b/c it wouldn't be the right thing to do to just kill myself. Some people my actually care. A small number but there's a few out there. Atleast I hope there is. If there's not then there's another thing I lost, my ability to judge who's really my friend and who isn't. That's all for now folks! Elainea you can say whatever you want if you think I'm a drama queen I don't give a shit! You hurt me. I tried being your friend elainea but you can't see the people that love you that are right in front of you. You push them away and go to other people. Toodles all who don't read this!
XOXO Allison XOXO