*Don't Leave Me All Alone*
ha, Blink 182. Anyway...
I haven't updated this in a long time, but now with Nicole gone and knowing I won't be able to talk to her every day because of our lack of minutes on our cell phones...I think I'm gonna start doing this shit more often.
This summer has ruled all. There have been little ups and downs, but overall for me, it was just fun, fun, fun. I got to hang out more with some amazing people. BEKAH, Rosemarie, Jimmy, John Duffy, Patrick, and on occasion Mikey, Alicia, and Fuller. When I'm with those people, I don't think I've ever laughed so hard, which makes me happy.
I think what makes me the most happiest about this summer is the fact that I finally learned how to balance my time between friends and Josh. And at some points during the summer, between two guys. HAHA...ok sorry not funny. EEP! Last summer, I was OBSESSED with hanging out with Josh and all those Target people. I'd freak out and blah blah blah. This summer, I'm giving him his space. Sure, I get weird if he doesn't call...FOR A WEEK. GrR. But I have my friends too and I can't start neglecting them because they've been there for me through out a lot.
With Pascolicious gone and school starting, I'm starting to get really nervous of a lot of things. Last school year I got really depressed because everyone left me (or so it seemed like) and I started to do horrible in school. I really really don't want to do that again because HI I'D LIKE TO GET THE FUCK OUT OF HARPER. Then there's by other big fear. With Pasco gone, I'm gonna start depending on Josh more to hang out all the time. Sure, right now I see him almost every day except for the days where my cell phone decides to be mentally-challenged and let me not receive his or anyone else's phone calls, but I'm sure he's gonna want to have nights where he's just with the guys and I'm understanding of that...but I'm just all freaked out because I'm going to be like "WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DOOOO...WAH WAH I'M BEING A WHINY LITTLE BITCH". I've just gotta remember that Bekah and Jose are still here...and Rose too even though she lives in bufu.
My HUGEST fear is who I'm going to turn to since Nicole is over an hour away...I hate depending on people to be there for me when I'm upset to begin with and she's the only person I go to nowadays, but now I can't drive to her house. Well technically I could, but she wouldn't be there and talking in her room alone would just make me look like a psychopath. The last thing I want to do is call her almost every week wailing for her to come home because I need her for one reason or another. I hate having to learn how to be independent. Thank god for at least having one class with friends. And it's my hardest subject too. <3 Laurence and Jason <3
Before I leave I would just like to say THANKS I LOVE STALKERS!
I haven't updated this in a long time, but now with Nicole gone and knowing I won't be able to talk to her every day because of our lack of minutes on our cell phones...I think I'm gonna start doing this shit more often.
This summer has ruled all. There have been little ups and downs, but overall for me, it was just fun, fun, fun. I got to hang out more with some amazing people. BEKAH, Rosemarie, Jimmy, John Duffy, Patrick, and on occasion Mikey, Alicia, and Fuller. When I'm with those people, I don't think I've ever laughed so hard, which makes me happy.
I think what makes me the most happiest about this summer is the fact that I finally learned how to balance my time between friends and Josh. And at some points during the summer, between two guys. HAHA...ok sorry not funny. EEP! Last summer, I was OBSESSED with hanging out with Josh and all those Target people. I'd freak out and blah blah blah. This summer, I'm giving him his space. Sure, I get weird if he doesn't call...FOR A WEEK. GrR. But I have my friends too and I can't start neglecting them because they've been there for me through out a lot.
With Pascolicious gone and school starting, I'm starting to get really nervous of a lot of things. Last school year I got really depressed because everyone left me (or so it seemed like) and I started to do horrible in school. I really really don't want to do that again because HI I'D LIKE TO GET THE FUCK OUT OF HARPER. Then there's by other big fear. With Pasco gone, I'm gonna start depending on Josh more to hang out all the time. Sure, right now I see him almost every day except for the days where my cell phone decides to be mentally-challenged and let me not receive his or anyone else's phone calls, but I'm sure he's gonna want to have nights where he's just with the guys and I'm understanding of that...but I'm just all freaked out because I'm going to be like "WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DOOOO...WAH WAH I'M BEING A WHINY LITTLE BITCH". I've just gotta remember that Bekah and Jose are still here...and Rose too even though she lives in bufu.
My HUGEST fear is who I'm going to turn to since Nicole is over an hour away...I hate depending on people to be there for me when I'm upset to begin with and she's the only person I go to nowadays, but now I can't drive to her house. Well technically I could, but she wouldn't be there and talking in her room alone would just make me look like a psychopath. The last thing I want to do is call her almost every week wailing for her to come home because I need her for one reason or another. I hate having to learn how to be independent. Thank god for at least having one class with friends. And it's my hardest subject too. <3 Laurence and Jason <3
Before I leave I would just like to say THANKS I LOVE STALKERS!