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long time no write.
as of now i feel as if im missing out on this other life; i could be having. instead of doing what i do for the past 5 years. emily has just shown me so much more to everything than i ever had thought. i have taken moments to just get myself out of the pattern of him and hangout with new folks and experience new things. but its not comfortable. although its much more fun and you have the oppt. to meet new and get to know people you wouldnt of thought, its just uncomfortable for me. i wish i could make norm. of comfortable something diffrent than what it has been... and experience NEW things instead of dried up old emotions and feelings.