These Are My Thoughts Written Down On Paper... Its My Only Saviour.. From Not Sayin What I Wanna Say
< I kno ive already used this title once before... but its needed again >
So its almost one oclock in the mornin... im left here sittin WTF... today has been so fuckin monotanous its ridiculous... so...
I kno for a fact im fallin... like seriously... no holding back... faces passing me by... hurtling 100 freakin million miles an hour.... falling....
I wanna stop... but at the same time i dont... i think it could really end up good... but that said... it always seems good... but then i get hurt... i get fucked around... kicked in the fuckin guts and left sittin back thinkin "what the fuck did i do wrong?"
Moments... ive always lived my life by moments... and when i think back... i think back to moments... and recently ive had some amazing moments... i never thought id actually really truly care about a guy... i never thought id feel comfortable with a guy... i mean.. yeah im attracted to em... i think they're hot and all that... but i honestly didnt believe that i could be so comfortable with one... and i can... am i lettin him in too far?
I always try to live my life so that i dont miss out on any oppurtunity life, karma, fate, whatever brings... and ill still continue to live my life like that... ill keep myself open to the fact that somethin big is gonna happen whether i like it or not... and instead of sittin down and watchin from the sidelines... maybe wolf whistlin as it passes me by... i think my better option is probably to hold on... and see ultimately where it ends up... i dont kno what direction its goin in... and im shittin myself even tryin to contemplate it... i guess im feelin burnt from the past... the scars are makin themselves noticed... and i dont wanna add another one to the collection... but i dont wanna miss out on the chance at that one in a million... i dont wanna let fear stop me from "maybe" lettin me realise... the one thing myself and countless others wait patiently for... the holy grail of emotions...
i jus want ppl to be 100% honest with me... im completely honest with everyone that i come into contact with... u may think that i may not approve of somethin uve done... u may be shy, nervous, scared or whatever to tell me... but im more understandin than the macho bullshit i pull off on the outside... i do have feelings too... i do have a heart... and i honestly really do give a shit... ill hold u if u need me to...
My head hurts... im tired... its late... and i dont kno what the fuck to do... i cant sleep... i cant do anythin... i think im gonna go watch the shadows... its bizarre how they never stop movin... they always have somethin to say...
So its almost one oclock in the mornin... im left here sittin WTF... today has been so fuckin monotanous its ridiculous... so...
I kno for a fact im fallin... like seriously... no holding back... faces passing me by... hurtling 100 freakin million miles an hour.... falling....
I wanna stop... but at the same time i dont... i think it could really end up good... but that said... it always seems good... but then i get hurt... i get fucked around... kicked in the fuckin guts and left sittin back thinkin "what the fuck did i do wrong?"
Moments... ive always lived my life by moments... and when i think back... i think back to moments... and recently ive had some amazing moments... i never thought id actually really truly care about a guy... i never thought id feel comfortable with a guy... i mean.. yeah im attracted to em... i think they're hot and all that... but i honestly didnt believe that i could be so comfortable with one... and i can... am i lettin him in too far?
I always try to live my life so that i dont miss out on any oppurtunity life, karma, fate, whatever brings... and ill still continue to live my life like that... ill keep myself open to the fact that somethin big is gonna happen whether i like it or not... and instead of sittin down and watchin from the sidelines... maybe wolf whistlin as it passes me by... i think my better option is probably to hold on... and see ultimately where it ends up... i dont kno what direction its goin in... and im shittin myself even tryin to contemplate it... i guess im feelin burnt from the past... the scars are makin themselves noticed... and i dont wanna add another one to the collection... but i dont wanna miss out on the chance at that one in a million... i dont wanna let fear stop me from "maybe" lettin me realise... the one thing myself and countless others wait patiently for... the holy grail of emotions...
i jus want ppl to be 100% honest with me... im completely honest with everyone that i come into contact with... u may think that i may not approve of somethin uve done... u may be shy, nervous, scared or whatever to tell me... but im more understandin than the macho bullshit i pull off on the outside... i do have feelings too... i do have a heart... and i honestly really do give a shit... ill hold u if u need me to...
My head hurts... im tired... its late... and i dont kno what the fuck to do... i cant sleep... i cant do anythin... i think im gonna go watch the shadows... its bizarre how they never stop movin... they always have somethin to say...