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Untrifty loveliness, why dost thou spend
Upon thyself thy beauty's legacy?
Nature's bequest gives nothing, but doth lend.
And, being frank, she lends to those are free.
Then beauteous thy, why dost thou abuse
The bounteous largess given thee to give?
Profitless ursurer, why dost thou use?
So great a sum of sums, yet canst not live?
For, having traffic with thyself alone,
Thou of thyself thy sweet self dost deceive.
Then how, when nature calls thee to be gone,
What acceptable audit canst thou be tomb'd with thee,
Which used lives th' executer to be.
thank you for clicking. i know that i can tell you anything. but if you are some loser who THINKS they are my friend, but really arent, then your really mean because i asked politely for you to not click. anyways, on with the story. o, and only read this if you really wanna take the time. dont rush. its veryimportant.
A few months ago, i began to realize that the past 11 years of school i have gone through so far have almost been a complete waste. no, not because i hate school blah blah blah. its because what i want to do with my life has absolutely nothing to do with fractions, european history, cells, or anything else i have been learning in school. what i want to be when i grow up is a dancer. nooo, not a dancer dancer, like, be on broadway, yet never get discovered and
only be famous in the dancing world. i dont want that. i want everyone to know who i am.
i was sitting in my social studies class one day learning about european art, about michelangelo, da vinci, shakespear, and other famous artists and writers. i began to realize how much i would have loved to live in their time. they were not famous for wearing cute clothes, being able to dance and sing at the same time, create songs like, oops i did it again, or anything else this world has begun to love and admire. they were famous for writing beautiful words, making beautiful art, and not being afraid to do anything. they were truely amazing people. today in our complex world, you would never see someone sculpting a detail piece of jesus and marry. you would never see someone painting a picture of peasents dancing around in a courtyard. you would never see someome writing about the death of a woman they loved using words like thy thou, thee, and dost. never. you never see anything like that. so as i sat in my class everyday learning more and more about this art, totally amazed by everything i was hearing, while everyone else in my class slept and complained, "i dont get it! i dont like this!," i realized thousand oaks was not the place for me. i dont belong in a school with 40 people in every class. i dont belong in a town where people dont even kno what D&G is. (LOL) i belong in the real world with real people.
i cant get away from TO, but i can get away from my school. i asked my mother, not knowing she would get so involved, if i could go to a private school. i didnt care which one. as long as i was away from los cerritos, i would be happy. i never knew my mom would accept my request. i complained everyday, moving classes, losing then making new friends, trying to start all over. well, it worked. i came home from school one day hearing the words, "i got an application to La Reina today," coming out of my mothers mouth. i was shocked. what had i done? i began to fear everything. all my surroundings. i went to school the next day with fear, fear that i might not be there the next year. i thought to myself, "im crazy, this is what i wanted, i wanted to go away. far away." once it became a reality, i didnt want it anymore. i missed my friends, even though i had not left yet. i hadnt even gotten ACCEPTED yet. i was freaking out inside my head. no one noticed. i didnt want them to notice. but i cant keep it inside anymore and i have to tell you all. i need your help. i need your advice. do i leave it all behind? everything. do i start over like i wanted? help me. i dont know what to do anymore. help me find my way. thankyou for reading my story, i hope you enjoyed and can help me in any kind of way. thankyou.