Life as you don't want to hear it
Maybe you can hear me better here ? Or maybe you just choose not to hear me i dont know. What i wrote was not for you exactly for this reason. If i thought i needed to i would of told you, now look everyone is mad at you. Honestly i don't think your pissed at me b/c i wrote that to Katie and you found out that i had no intentions on telling you, i think your pissed off because im right. I love her, and you know it. If she got hurt i would never forgive you. Your on the rebound and this happened last time. I won't blame you for the past but i'll blame you for reliving your mistakes. Let her be happy damn it ! and let claims be made on the happiness. He had his eyes on her first whether you want to addmitt it or not. You were together than, but like you said don't justify the present with the past. That was then and you let her go. I don't need to explain myself but if you want to know why i'm not talking to you this is it ... that and i have no voice seeing i have potienal mono, but w/e with the fuckin stupid doctors. All i'm saying is leave me out of it b/c i didn't do shit to you. Oh, and please do not tell me you love me. At this point, i don't believe in those words, not from you.
For everyone else, i love Ant. I know things are kind of rough but they are getting a lot better. I realized from a really close, great friend that no one could love him like i love him. No one could replace me, no one could have the patience to love him, and he couldn't love me better than anyone. Nothing is perfect and you have to realize that. We have our objectives but what you try not to see is he is the only guy who has ever made me feel beautiful. You say there'll be more out there, but right now there is only room for one in my heart, and my stubborn mind. All this "pain" we've been through together is our own fault and we will fix it, but i don't want people hating him, judging him, critizing him, because the way i see it none of you KNOW him. He's mine, and as far as im concerned he always will be.
Yes, i am sick, so don't expect too much from me anytime soon. Yay! for mono .... or something similar.
For everyone else, i love Ant. I know things are kind of rough but they are getting a lot better. I realized from a really close, great friend that no one could love him like i love him. No one could replace me, no one could have the patience to love him, and he couldn't love me better than anyone. Nothing is perfect and you have to realize that. We have our objectives but what you try not to see is he is the only guy who has ever made me feel beautiful. You say there'll be more out there, but right now there is only room for one in my heart, and my stubborn mind. All this "pain" we've been through together is our own fault and we will fix it, but i don't want people hating him, judging him, critizing him, because the way i see it none of you KNOW him. He's mine, and as far as im concerned he always will be.
Yes, i am sick, so don't expect too much from me anytime soon. Yay! for mono .... or something similar.