Is this it ... ?
What is pain when it's all you've ever known ? One last time i try again ... No more second chances. Let me sleep some more.
P.S. I miss you Kitty !! <333
It hurts that i know he still loves me, and that he knows i still love him. It hurts that nothing has changed except our title. We still talk on the phone every night. He's still going to come over once in a while. It's our relationship just with freedom to do w/e else. I guess i should be happy, but i was so sure this time. I was so into commiment and being happy, having a future and something to live for. He was holding me up, and at the worst possible moment he let me down. A fragile angel with broken wings is useless in my opinion, except they always know how to smile. I hate that i've gone through this so much in the last 6 months that its hard to walk around all depressed and sleep and not eat, b/c in my head in a few weeks it will all be fine, just like last time, and the time before. Hope is there, it has to be, but i know this time is different. I can take this over and over again. I have my friends, and he never really liked them, as i never really liked his. Maybe this is for the best than. I don't know anymore.
I miss all my friends ... They've all been off this week doing something while i was here, doing nothing. Hopefully this weekend will be filled with them. I miss Sarah with everything inside of me right now. ::sighs:: I want summer to be here so i don't have to worry about the math class i'm failing, again. Or the Spanish class i could exceed in that i'm barely passing. This summer is going to be no home, no sleep, one big party. WoOt! yes yes .... this little girl doesn't care anymore ..
I miss you ...