Mack
I have no where to write this, cuz nothing is private anymore. I'm so confused about everything. I know I'm being stupid, but maybe the reason I like her is because she's unavailable. I don't think I take any risks with relationships. I just sit in my house and reject anyone who comes remotely near me because I'm scared. I'm scared of how I look, I'm scared of what they'll think, I'm scared of how it will end... How can anything be good when I'm just waiting for the bottom to drop out? I can't even stand myself, so how could anyone else? How could anyone ever possibly want to be with me?
And I like her. In a way that slightly frightens me. So, is all of this just a game with her? When I texted her about being worried for her safety, will she text back? Or will she back away, thinking it was just harmless flirting when I actually care about her... She's unpredictable. She's beautiful. She's fucking gone and I can't seem to wrap my head around that stupid fucking fact. Like siriusly Jenna, not only would she A.) have to be attracted to you and that's pretty much ridiculous, B.) SHE'S IN FUCKING OKLAHOMA!!!! And she's getting deployed. For a year.
It's never gonna happen stupid. Stop making a fool out of yourself.
And I like her. In a way that slightly frightens me. So, is all of this just a game with her? When I texted her about being worried for her safety, will she text back? Or will she back away, thinking it was just harmless flirting when I actually care about her... She's unpredictable. She's beautiful. She's fucking gone and I can't seem to wrap my head around that stupid fucking fact. Like siriusly Jenna, not only would she A.) have to be attracted to you and that's pretty much ridiculous, B.) SHE'S IN FUCKING OKLAHOMA!!!! And she's getting deployed. For a year.
It's never gonna happen stupid. Stop making a fool out of yourself.