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Oh....right...
New LOTR comes out tonight...
yea... Look who is staying in...
And I bet i know who is going to see it without me.
So many people...
I went and saw the first one with leslie and a bunch of our friends...
The second one... I dont remember if we were still together or not...
It would have been real nice to see all of them with her.
Same with matrix...
This hurts so much... more than I can describe in words.
So if it hurts me so much why do I keep at it...
Because I have faith... faith in her.
Faith that she can see what others do.
Faith that she can be herself... open and true.
It doesnt help that im sick...
It doesnt help that I feel so sad...
But... it cant be helped...
Because this is the way things are.
If anyone ever believed that this is the way things were meant to be and that this is 'destined' to be my life, Im going to show you all wrong.
Im going to live my life because of how I make it... not how everyone tells me its going to be.
If this is all so simple that it can be forgotten, then it is just as simple that it can be held on to.
Saying "just let it go" is the equivalent of me saying "just come back"...
But Im not asking that... Im only asking to talk...
Im not even a friend anymore am I?
Im still pushed away and decieved... secluded and hidden from...
Im trying my hardest... and I wont ever give up because someone tells me so.
New LOTR comes out tonight...
yea... Look who is staying in...
And I bet i know who is going to see it without me.
So many people...
I went and saw the first one with leslie and a bunch of our friends...
The second one... I dont remember if we were still together or not...
It would have been real nice to see all of them with her.
Same with matrix...
This hurts so much... more than I can describe in words.
So if it hurts me so much why do I keep at it...
Because I have faith... faith in her.
Faith that she can see what others do.
Faith that she can be herself... open and true.
It doesnt help that im sick...
It doesnt help that I feel so sad...
But... it cant be helped...
Because this is the way things are.
If anyone ever believed that this is the way things were meant to be and that this is 'destined' to be my life, Im going to show you all wrong.
Im going to live my life because of how I make it... not how everyone tells me its going to be.
If this is all so simple that it can be forgotten, then it is just as simple that it can be held on to.
Saying "just let it go" is the equivalent of me saying "just come back"...
But Im not asking that... Im only asking to talk...
Im not even a friend anymore am I?
Im still pushed away and decieved... secluded and hidden from...
Im trying my hardest... and I wont ever give up because someone tells me so.