god i love college <3
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I am having so much fun, soooo much fun and im doing pretty damn well in my classes (knock on wood.) So this is great. I found my old xanga the other night. I read it alot now and man i was so sad. Its so weird I used to be like that. I miss being in highschool tho and being in love with my town and even over analyzing everything. LIke I feel so much more grown up and its so crazy. Theres a lot of shit talking around here and its getting old quick. I want everyone to get along and be mature. I honestly think some people here are stuck in that middle school complex where they have talk shit to amillion other people but dont have the balls to confront the person they are angry at. It is very frustrating to say the least.
BUt let me get to my usual positive self. There are so many good people here. People that would go out on a limb for you and its so nice. Finally people that are like willing to go all out for you and ytou know youd do it for them too :)
heres some old clips from my xanga, you can laugh since i chuckled a few times while reading :)
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
wellllllllllll... long time no write. SOOO much has happened. I spent 2 days down at my cousins beach house which was quite fun indeed. THENNN i went to 4 days of field hockey camp which got my ass in shape. It was fun, our coach Oliver, was from hollland and was really nice. OKKKKKK so then yesterday i had lacrosse and then today i have started my mission to get my permit. It was quite an adventure....
So. the guy picked me up one hour late. His name was Steve and he was very intimidating at first. ONe of those people that could have been mildly attractive if you did not see his face. You could tell he was a workout junkie and was very into his apperance. He picked me up without an apology for being late and there were two other girls in the car. One was wearing a red plain Tshirt and jeans whith bright blue contacted eyes. She seemed nice. The other, sitting next to me wore a wrap on her head, obviouisly of a certain heritage and was kinda of junky but had a pretty face. She sang every single song on the radio on the way to the DMV and was borderline annoying, but still nice. So all i had to do was take a vision test to make sure i wasnt going to be a blind driver and all that nonsense, while these two ladies had to take their written test again, due to previous failures. They both failed again by one question, and i felt bad for them. The DMV was a fun place to be tho.Im corny like that I LOVE public places because every type of person goes to the DMV. Its like going to the grocery store but peoples personalities come out more at the DMV. I just sat there after my eye test and looked around. There was a really pretty foreign lady that sounded russian with blonde dyed hair with 2 adorable little babies. It blew my mind that they could be so innocent and cute at such a young age. There was so many different people from old to younger from emotional wrecks to calm and collected. Its weird to see the extremes people can react at when they are frustrated. people reaqlly dooooo intrigue me.
6:46 PM - add hopes - add thoughts - make a wish
YOU KNOW WHAT SUCKS ??? EVERY TIME I SEE YOUR FUCKING FACE YOU GET SAD ALL OVER AGAIN. whatever time heals and i know that i dont have to go jumping into a relationship to make myself feel better because im not a needy person like that.
Heart-shaped hallways.
Leading the way to nowhere.
And I'm left stranded here.
Two years from anywhere.
Too scared to leave the shelter of this fear.
I'll just follow the fragrance of these fake tears.
Your silence says it all. I know your throat is swelling.
You want to say so much.
But you're afraid you might say what you mean this time.
I loved you for who you WERE but you werent what you seemed.
You tried and tried to change me.
It's funny now how you say you're leaving.
Because I'm not the person I used to be.
Shape someone else now, mold someone new.
Take someone else down, your heart-shaped hallway too.
9:10 PM - add hopes - add thoughts - make a wish
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
'Cause my style's like a chemical spill
Feasible rhymes that you can vision and feel
Conducted and formed, This is a hell of a concept
We make it hype and you want to step with this
Shay plays on the fade, slice like a ninja
Cut like a razor blade so fast, Other DJs say, "damn"
If my rhyme was a drug, I'd sell it by the gram
Keep my composure when it's time to get loose
Magnetized by the mic while I kick my juice
If there was a problem, Yo -- I'll solve it!
Check out the hook while Deshay revolves it.
Ice Ice Baby Vanilla, Ice Ice Baby Vanilla
Ice Ice Baby Vanilla, Ice Ice Baby Vanilla
Yo man -- Let's get out of here! Word to your mother!
LAUGH MY FUCKING ASS OFF... do i ever stop putting lyrics in this thing?? new topic. it was weird, today we went home by this old like outlet place thing, kinda like a strip mall. it was all boarded up some of it and abandoned. im so curious to whats inside. and then i had a daydream about how cool it would be to stand on top of the boarded up building and just take pictures of me on top of it. its sorta a symbolic thing, but i really love it. lol, shit like that seriously intrigues me. like the other day it was the absolute most depressing thing, but at the same time it was kind of beautiful... a butterfly was being killed by a bee. and the butterfly sorta like tried for a while, then jsut died. lol sound weird yet? i have nevre seen anything like it. the bee picked it up, no lie, and carried it where it wanted, but it was really heavy for it i think, cuz it kept like landing. yea and the wings of this poor butterfly just kinda like dangled, i dunno haha i just spent like a year describing nature, but it gave me the chills.
9:49 PM - add hopes - add thoughts - make a wish
Saturday, September 18, 2004
Watched ten things i hate about you today. lol i cant believe she only listed 10. my fav. part.....
I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you roll your eyes,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb guitar
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you’re NEVER right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you’re not around,
and the fact that you didn’t call.
But mostly I hate ...
1:22 PM - add hopes - add thoughts - make a wish
I am having so much fun, soooo much fun and im doing pretty damn well in my classes (knock on wood.) So this is great. I found my old xanga the other night. I read it alot now and man i was so sad. Its so weird I used to be like that. I miss being in highschool tho and being in love with my town and even over analyzing everything. LIke I feel so much more grown up and its so crazy. Theres a lot of shit talking around here and its getting old quick. I want everyone to get along and be mature. I honestly think some people here are stuck in that middle school complex where they have talk shit to amillion other people but dont have the balls to confront the person they are angry at. It is very frustrating to say the least.
BUt let me get to my usual positive self. There are so many good people here. People that would go out on a limb for you and its so nice. Finally people that are like willing to go all out for you and ytou know youd do it for them too :)
heres some old clips from my xanga, you can laugh since i chuckled a few times while reading :)
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
wellllllllllll... long time no write. SOOO much has happened. I spent 2 days down at my cousins beach house which was quite fun indeed. THENNN i went to 4 days of field hockey camp which got my ass in shape. It was fun, our coach Oliver, was from hollland and was really nice. OKKKKKK so then yesterday i had lacrosse and then today i have started my mission to get my permit. It was quite an adventure....
So. the guy picked me up one hour late. His name was Steve and he was very intimidating at first. ONe of those people that could have been mildly attractive if you did not see his face. You could tell he was a workout junkie and was very into his apperance. He picked me up without an apology for being late and there were two other girls in the car. One was wearing a red plain Tshirt and jeans whith bright blue contacted eyes. She seemed nice. The other, sitting next to me wore a wrap on her head, obviouisly of a certain heritage and was kinda of junky but had a pretty face. She sang every single song on the radio on the way to the DMV and was borderline annoying, but still nice. So all i had to do was take a vision test to make sure i wasnt going to be a blind driver and all that nonsense, while these two ladies had to take their written test again, due to previous failures. They both failed again by one question, and i felt bad for them. The DMV was a fun place to be tho.Im corny like that I LOVE public places because every type of person goes to the DMV. Its like going to the grocery store but peoples personalities come out more at the DMV. I just sat there after my eye test and looked around. There was a really pretty foreign lady that sounded russian with blonde dyed hair with 2 adorable little babies. It blew my mind that they could be so innocent and cute at such a young age. There was so many different people from old to younger from emotional wrecks to calm and collected. Its weird to see the extremes people can react at when they are frustrated. people reaqlly dooooo intrigue me.
6:46 PM - add hopes - add thoughts - make a wish
YOU KNOW WHAT SUCKS ??? EVERY TIME I SEE YOUR FUCKING FACE YOU GET SAD ALL OVER AGAIN. whatever time heals and i know that i dont have to go jumping into a relationship to make myself feel better because im not a needy person like that.
Heart-shaped hallways.
Leading the way to nowhere.
And I'm left stranded here.
Two years from anywhere.
Too scared to leave the shelter of this fear.
I'll just follow the fragrance of these fake tears.
Your silence says it all. I know your throat is swelling.
You want to say so much.
But you're afraid you might say what you mean this time.
I loved you for who you WERE but you werent what you seemed.
You tried and tried to change me.
It's funny now how you say you're leaving.
Because I'm not the person I used to be.
Shape someone else now, mold someone new.
Take someone else down, your heart-shaped hallway too.
9:10 PM - add hopes - add thoughts - make a wish
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
'Cause my style's like a chemical spill
Feasible rhymes that you can vision and feel
Conducted and formed, This is a hell of a concept
We make it hype and you want to step with this
Shay plays on the fade, slice like a ninja
Cut like a razor blade so fast, Other DJs say, "damn"
If my rhyme was a drug, I'd sell it by the gram
Keep my composure when it's time to get loose
Magnetized by the mic while I kick my juice
If there was a problem, Yo -- I'll solve it!
Check out the hook while Deshay revolves it.
Ice Ice Baby Vanilla, Ice Ice Baby Vanilla
Ice Ice Baby Vanilla, Ice Ice Baby Vanilla
Yo man -- Let's get out of here! Word to your mother!
LAUGH MY FUCKING ASS OFF... do i ever stop putting lyrics in this thing?? new topic. it was weird, today we went home by this old like outlet place thing, kinda like a strip mall. it was all boarded up some of it and abandoned. im so curious to whats inside. and then i had a daydream about how cool it would be to stand on top of the boarded up building and just take pictures of me on top of it. its sorta a symbolic thing, but i really love it. lol, shit like that seriously intrigues me. like the other day it was the absolute most depressing thing, but at the same time it was kind of beautiful... a butterfly was being killed by a bee. and the butterfly sorta like tried for a while, then jsut died. lol sound weird yet? i have nevre seen anything like it. the bee picked it up, no lie, and carried it where it wanted, but it was really heavy for it i think, cuz it kept like landing. yea and the wings of this poor butterfly just kinda like dangled, i dunno haha i just spent like a year describing nature, but it gave me the chills.
9:49 PM - add hopes - add thoughts - make a wish
Saturday, September 18, 2004
Watched ten things i hate about you today. lol i cant believe she only listed 10. my fav. part.....
I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you roll your eyes,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb guitar
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you’re NEVER right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you’re not around,
and the fact that you didn’t call.
But mostly I hate ...
1:22 PM - add hopes - add thoughts - make a wish