Heres my heart
Today was the weirdest day ive had in a long time. It started out just plain with lacrosse alumni game and im thinking seeing all the old people come back to our highschool made me think. So i come home, ddnt get my prom dress today and after some cleaning decided to go for a run. So i take my brothers cd player and dig an old cd that i havnt listened to in decades out. I start my run as i usually do and i go to the bridge. Im the type of girl that left an anonymous note on the bridge.. kinda to make my mark, and i did this in winter. I was pretty sure it would fade away and all, but i go there for the first time in like 3 months today and see that someone carved it in deeper. I was really surprised and especially because of what it said it made me feel like really good. LIke someone actually took what i said and related it to them. So i went across the bridge listening to my songs, and it was nice. I saw families and stuff in the kayaks which is cool. I kinda wanna do that but id prolly tip my ass over haha. I kept running and i dont know what came over me but when i got to wawa i decided i wanted to go to the train tracks. So there i went, and i dont know like i used to know those trails so well and it just is weird to go back to a place after a long time of not being there. I kept going and came out of IGA and then went down by the schools road. I decided to go to the playground and like chill for a bit and i dunno i think i was in an emo mood of something because i thought a lot about how differnet everything was there since i went there and like how much ive changed and everyone around me has changed in the past few years. And its just crazy. They dont even have those green ball things that used to fall from the trees (walnuts maybe lmao)and we used to always throw them at each other. So then i went by ace hardware and i just randomly found a trail into the woods there and like tehre was this old cart from iga rotted which was weird, and there was just quiet. I know like some people have to go out every 2 seconds and all that and dont get me wrong i like all that too, but sometimes its just like you have to kinda stop and i dunno look around as corney as it sounds. Its so easy to get caught up in things that arnt important. And i walked away from that spot, (from autumn to ashes reflections came on at that VERY SECOND) and i was like (to myself this is) damn, this is growing up.