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ok so i pretty much give up on guys.... i want a g/f now... i basically just want some one to love me and some one i can love and talk to and spend time with.. i want to feel cared about again and the one person who says they care doesn't show it very well DAN! i wanna yell at you.. in here but i won't b/c what happens between us shold stay there.. but you hurt me againn... and i am mad.. and so i tell ppl what i was thnk ing doing for his b-day was
take post-its and write all the reasons/thing i love about him on them and put them on his car and i made a list and there is a wwhole fricking lot.... and buy a dozen roses take one out.. put a fake one in its place and tell him that i'll love him til they die...
now i feel so dumb.. why do i love him? why can't i move on.. i really don't want to.. i love him so much its kills.. not talking to him makes a day go on forever.. and i try hard everyday not to cry... i know no cares and they are tried of hearing about then shut your eyes and stop reading.. b/c this is my lj and i can write whateer i want....damnit.,
and more sad news sometime tomorrow.. now i sleep...
take post-its and write all the reasons/thing i love about him on them and put them on his car and i made a list and there is a wwhole fricking lot.... and buy a dozen roses take one out.. put a fake one in its place and tell him that i'll love him til they die...
now i feel so dumb.. why do i love him? why can't i move on.. i really don't want to.. i love him so much its kills.. not talking to him makes a day go on forever.. and i try hard everyday not to cry... i know no cares and they are tried of hearing about then shut your eyes and stop reading.. b/c this is my lj and i can write whateer i want....damnit.,
and more sad news sometime tomorrow.. now i sleep...