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I’ve been having a bit of a bad day. I did some thinking, and typing, and I already feel much better. I kind of liked how my written thought process went, and so I decided I’d dust off the old lj!
I’ll eventually update on the details of my life, but right now I live in Binghamton, doing research while applying to graduate schools. I’m deeply sorry that I’ve become out of touch with those of you I’ve been out of touch of. A very stressful period of my life is coming to a close, and I will make every effort to talk with you more often.
In the meanwhile, thank you all for everything.
I’ve invested so much into science, and through my passion for it, I’ve met wonderful people. I am not sure where the road ahead lies. How can I be? However. I live a life rich in love, trust, and companionship. I have almost never been disappointed or hurt by the people I care about. I am in relationship with a woman I love and respect. No one can or would look at my life and call it a failure.
There are difficulties. My boss, John, can be very aggressive and difficult to deal with. But I can learn from this, and from him. There are people, powerful, influential people, who has the exact same temperament, but will have much more affect on my life. Let him be the fire I am forged in. My fellow employees constantly seem lazy and behind. Let them be the coworkers who are always about, and who never discourage. There will be worse.
I will admit, I’ve lived a life with little to no exposure to the real world. It has loads of people who make no sense. But, in it all I’ve managed to carve out a happy life for myself, hobbies I deeply enjoy, and a coterie of friends all over the country who love me and whom I love. .
If I was asked bluntly, would you trade all of the professional success you could have for the relationships you’ve made the last year…my response would be, and is, a resounding NO. Not a second of these two years has been wasted. I’ve learned, grown up, and loved. I wrote 3 papers in various states of revision, and I am well on my way to be the first ever to characterize HIT-T15 cryopreservation. If I was not here for 2 years, I would have NEVER come up with what might just be best way ever to kill tumors. I am poised to do great things, and to live a great life. I will live a happy life filled with more love, from more people, than anyone could reasonably ask for. That is, perhaps, the best part of all.
I’ll eventually update on the details of my life, but right now I live in Binghamton, doing research while applying to graduate schools. I’m deeply sorry that I’ve become out of touch with those of you I’ve been out of touch of. A very stressful period of my life is coming to a close, and I will make every effort to talk with you more often.
In the meanwhile, thank you all for everything.
I’ve invested so much into science, and through my passion for it, I’ve met wonderful people. I am not sure where the road ahead lies. How can I be? However. I live a life rich in love, trust, and companionship. I have almost never been disappointed or hurt by the people I care about. I am in relationship with a woman I love and respect. No one can or would look at my life and call it a failure.
There are difficulties. My boss, John, can be very aggressive and difficult to deal with. But I can learn from this, and from him. There are people, powerful, influential people, who has the exact same temperament, but will have much more affect on my life. Let him be the fire I am forged in. My fellow employees constantly seem lazy and behind. Let them be the coworkers who are always about, and who never discourage. There will be worse.
I will admit, I’ve lived a life with little to no exposure to the real world. It has loads of people who make no sense. But, in it all I’ve managed to carve out a happy life for myself, hobbies I deeply enjoy, and a coterie of friends all over the country who love me and whom I love. .
If I was asked bluntly, would you trade all of the professional success you could have for the relationships you’ve made the last year…my response would be, and is, a resounding NO. Not a second of these two years has been wasted. I’ve learned, grown up, and loved. I wrote 3 papers in various states of revision, and I am well on my way to be the first ever to characterize HIT-T15 cryopreservation. If I was not here for 2 years, I would have NEVER come up with what might just be best way ever to kill tumors. I am poised to do great things, and to live a great life. I will live a happy life filled with more love, from more people, than anyone could reasonably ask for. That is, perhaps, the best part of all.