When things change
I am sorry, it has been a while since my last update. But, in all honesty, there has been little to say and little time to say it in. But now there has been a change in my routene, and I figured that I might as well say my piece. I have enjoyed nine months with Megan as my girlfriend and partner. She has been one of my great joys, and one of my constants. She was someone I could share my deepest thoughts with, and with her I could unwind a little. This is not to say things were perfect, far from it. We had fights, I made her cry, she made me cry. I got her angry, and suprisingly, she got me angry. But I am as glad for the bad as I am for the good, because I had never had to deal with someone on that level before, and it was wonderful in it's own way. We had a great level of comfort with each other. Yesterday, Megan and I broke up. I won't go into the details, because they are not mine to tell. The short version was that she wanted some time apart, and the reasons she gave me were reasons that I could not deny. Once they were brought to my attention, I felt foolish for not seeing them myself. Part of me wanted to ask her to stay, to work things out, to fight for her, but I knew that would be wrong of me, and selfish. I have loved, and I have been loved in return. I have shared part of my life with one of the most amazing people I have ever met. Even if I never go out with her again, I will do all I can to hold on to her company untill the day I die. What can I say, she makes a kickass friend. My only regret is that in my arrogance, I thought that I could help her unaided, and that I was too blinded by desire to help to see what I was doing. I would write of other things now, but I am out of time. Stay tuned :).
Ryan
Ryan