* WhAt aM I SuppOse tO thiiNk?_
I hope your reading this and can understand me alittle more instead of always jumping into conclusions. By now I know the [Rumor] if thats what you like to call it is. David you have to try to understand me just alittle, you make it so easy sending me an email telling me you have nothing to do with it.... but I dont know what to think anymore what if she is telling me the truth? What if she really is...Pregnant.- And you are the father...gosh I have thought about it so much and its seriously getting to me there can be a possibility that you are, even though your so young I never figured you with a kid...[A kid with a kid] You ask what makes me think that you want a kid and what big of a responsibility having one is but in this case I have heard you say you wanted a kid and I wont remind you when I guess you figured it out by now. I wont fight anymore cause I clearly know Tanya won this battle if it comes to having a kid and if she thinks thats cool and thats the only way she can have you then fine I wont do something stupid that im going to regret to win you over, theres something called [Letting Go] You say you love me...heh...what do you know about love? I mean you call it love but is it real....If you really loved me you wouldnt do such a thing but I dont know yet I cant say anything because I dont know the truth and I guess it will be a mystery and time will tell. I just never figured you doing such a thing, Tanyas always been easy so then again that baby may not be yours its probably alilttle game to fuck around with my head or your head whatever. Either way that doesnt change the fact that I love you and just because I havent send you an email or chat with you when im online and ignored you the last times doesnt mean I hate you...it just means Im confused and I dont know what to think. Thiis is just all so fucked I dont know Im seriously not gonna let it ruin my trip because I mean this is the only time I get to be happy and not give a fuck about anyone or anything. David I love you too... but if the rumor is true and as much as you dont like Tanya and dont wanna be with her its fine...but you wont be with me, thats right if its your kid -yOu l0st Mee-