hoes by the sea
so i woke up at 11 today, and it's a friday, and its summer already but it doesnt feel like it. so i ended up packing up all the stuff from this year. i got my cardboard box and started digging out everything that had come into exsistant this year. from the cheatsheets to the notes to actual school work. i put them all into the box and sat it on my floor. and as i flipped through it all pictures came into my head from all sorta stuff that happened this year. i had put in the fray cd and was listening to it while i did it all and every song sorta closed the door a little more. i was done by the last song ready to walk out the my room door and i guess walk away from the school year too. but then the last song came on "vienna" and the words made me come back, sit down and listen. it was the very last song and it fit so well.
Maybe in five or ten yours and mine will meet again
Straighten this whole thing out
Maybe then honesty need not be feared as a friend or an enemy
This is the distance
And this is my game face
There's really no way to reach me (x2)
Is there really no way to reach me?
Am I already...
hearing those words made me think of momo and the seniors that i wont see anymore. it made me sad but happy too. cuz it also meant i wasnt the same person i was when i came into this school year. and hope that i would see all the people that left again, at some point and time. but like some sort of renewing cycle ive met new people this year, in between all the dying(whether mines or other peoples), work, stupidity and whatever.
yesterday was a really good day. i sat around with angela and we talked and messed around. its something we hadnt done for a while so i was thankful for the chance to do it. i saw anushka and a few of my juniors and people i was glad for the chance to chill with. this last day was a nice little gift to branch out from the hoes by the sea. this is me shutting the door to the 06-07 year, it wasnt what i thought it would be and i dont want to go through it again but im proud of myself that i made it. and even though i fear next year and what it could be, im so glad for the chance to face it.
ps. i wish you the best at CA momo. even though it means abandoning leaving us.
Maybe in five or ten yours and mine will meet again
Straighten this whole thing out
Maybe then honesty need not be feared as a friend or an enemy
This is the distance
And this is my game face
There's really no way to reach me (x2)
Is there really no way to reach me?
Am I already...
hearing those words made me think of momo and the seniors that i wont see anymore. it made me sad but happy too. cuz it also meant i wasnt the same person i was when i came into this school year. and hope that i would see all the people that left again, at some point and time. but like some sort of renewing cycle ive met new people this year, in between all the dying(whether mines or other peoples), work, stupidity and whatever.
yesterday was a really good day. i sat around with angela and we talked and messed around. its something we hadnt done for a while so i was thankful for the chance to do it. i saw anushka and a few of my juniors and people i was glad for the chance to chill with. this last day was a nice little gift to branch out from the hoes by the sea. this is me shutting the door to the 06-07 year, it wasnt what i thought it would be and i dont want to go through it again but im proud of myself that i made it. and even though i fear next year and what it could be, im so glad for the chance to face it.
ps. i wish you the best at CA momo. even though it means abandoning leaving us.