This week, I have been mostly getting fucked for free
Yes, thats right, Monday night, paul got me good and drunk, cos hes a legend, tuesday night, greek ben got me good and stoned, cos hes a legend, and tonight.....i dont know, maybe Ill stay in and play xbox, its been a while.
Writing hasnt happened, mainly my fault, i was ill earlier this week, and that made me incapable of standing without throwing up, and now ive got to much shit on, friday im leaving aber for three weeks of home comforts and rest, and hopefully clear my head and come back fresh to make the film, try out some new material, and get some definate answers on my current dilema.
Something very weird happened a few nights ago, involving someone i met when i was meeting people. I got the impression that they liked me (or they could have been jokin, taking the piss or whatever) which is weird. Thanx to many, many weeks in therapy ive learnt not to dismiss these things on spec. some Women, may in deed find me attractive (which is weird, but women can be a little odd some times) which is a thought ive never had before. But now im noticing things, including this girl being either very obvious, and a little scary, or joking around, and being very weird. It seems cool, but she isnt for me, we have nothing in common apart from a slight interest in dave gorman and weed.
and now for the first time in my life, ive had to consider the possibility of turning someone down. Nobody has ever asked me for anything like that (with the exception of Lindsy years ago, but she was pissed, and sat on me, and tried to kiss me, so saying no there was easy). I dont ever want to hurt anyone, and this has potential depending on stuff.
but hey, maybe im being cautious, she may not even like me at all, im not gonna worry about it to much.
In other news, Im going home on friday, cant wait, see everyone, get them to buy me beer (hopefully, they all work, and i havent cashed in on the "im a poor student" line yet) dont get me wrong, i can live without beer, its just back home, everyone meets in the pub, and it isnt about binge drinking (well, sometimes) I just hope they can sub me so i can hang with them. Altho penny and mike have a flat now, and as far as i know, hanging there would be free, and siobhans place is a mere bus ride away (hopefully parents will sub me the fare) should be a good few weeks
well, ive ranted enough, im off.
Writing hasnt happened, mainly my fault, i was ill earlier this week, and that made me incapable of standing without throwing up, and now ive got to much shit on, friday im leaving aber for three weeks of home comforts and rest, and hopefully clear my head and come back fresh to make the film, try out some new material, and get some definate answers on my current dilema.
Something very weird happened a few nights ago, involving someone i met when i was meeting people. I got the impression that they liked me (or they could have been jokin, taking the piss or whatever) which is weird. Thanx to many, many weeks in therapy ive learnt not to dismiss these things on spec. some Women, may in deed find me attractive (which is weird, but women can be a little odd some times) which is a thought ive never had before. But now im noticing things, including this girl being either very obvious, and a little scary, or joking around, and being very weird. It seems cool, but she isnt for me, we have nothing in common apart from a slight interest in dave gorman and weed.
and now for the first time in my life, ive had to consider the possibility of turning someone down. Nobody has ever asked me for anything like that (with the exception of Lindsy years ago, but she was pissed, and sat on me, and tried to kiss me, so saying no there was easy). I dont ever want to hurt anyone, and this has potential depending on stuff.
but hey, maybe im being cautious, she may not even like me at all, im not gonna worry about it to much.
In other news, Im going home on friday, cant wait, see everyone, get them to buy me beer (hopefully, they all work, and i havent cashed in on the "im a poor student" line yet) dont get me wrong, i can live without beer, its just back home, everyone meets in the pub, and it isnt about binge drinking (well, sometimes) I just hope they can sub me so i can hang with them. Altho penny and mike have a flat now, and as far as i know, hanging there would be free, and siobhans place is a mere bus ride away (hopefully parents will sub me the fare) should be a good few weeks
well, ive ranted enough, im off.