something tells me, this is gonna make sense
i've been back home for almost 2 weeks, and i still haven't landed a job. i've applied at new places, reapplied at old (ew, target), and still, no luck. no responses to my calls, nothing. needless to say, i'm feeling quite a bit stressed out from all of this b/c...well, rejection in all its forms gets a little old. (even target doesn't want me! and they employ high school drop outs! waaahhhh!)
KT and posey came over tonight, and i admit, i was pretty initially pretty frustrated. i'd just finished writing a cover letter and sending it to yet another company via online application, and wasn't feeling very positive about it. or anything, really. but after a little ben & jerry's and a little light-hearted conversation, i realized something: i've been so caught up with this frantic job hunting and making increasingly desperate phone calls, and wanting so badly to DO something, i've completely overlooked how cool some things are in my life. i keep wanting things to be different: to have a job, to not be single, to have an adventure...i'm not enjoying the things that i have right in front of me. i'm catching up on sleep, and i dug out my art supplies the other day and did some work in my much-neglected sketchbook. and hanging out with my mom is one of the awesomest things about being home. she's a cute, sweet lady, and i didn't realize how much i had missed it. and it's something that i probably won't ever be able to do again, if all goes according to plan.
sometimes you get bogged down in the details of life. it's like trying to hang a picture straight on the wall. a little to the left, a little to the right, but you can never get it to hang quite straight. not by yourself, anyway, and definitely not by hugging that close to the wall. that's what friends and family are for, i think. they're there to stand behind you and call out directions to let you know where you should be moving. and also, to remind you that, sometimes, you need to take a step back so that you can see the bigger picture, and readjust accordingly. or maybe it's so you can see that maybe you're hanging things a lot straighter than you think you are. and there's always God, who's there to let you know that whether you're hanging straight or crooked, He loves you still and He's going to make sure that you get it right in the end. and you know, that's a really good feeling.
so i may be jobless, single and broke, but life is still pretty awesome. really awesome.
KT and posey came over tonight, and i admit, i was pretty initially pretty frustrated. i'd just finished writing a cover letter and sending it to yet another company via online application, and wasn't feeling very positive about it. or anything, really. but after a little ben & jerry's and a little light-hearted conversation, i realized something: i've been so caught up with this frantic job hunting and making increasingly desperate phone calls, and wanting so badly to DO something, i've completely overlooked how cool some things are in my life. i keep wanting things to be different: to have a job, to not be single, to have an adventure...i'm not enjoying the things that i have right in front of me. i'm catching up on sleep, and i dug out my art supplies the other day and did some work in my much-neglected sketchbook. and hanging out with my mom is one of the awesomest things about being home. she's a cute, sweet lady, and i didn't realize how much i had missed it. and it's something that i probably won't ever be able to do again, if all goes according to plan.
sometimes you get bogged down in the details of life. it's like trying to hang a picture straight on the wall. a little to the left, a little to the right, but you can never get it to hang quite straight. not by yourself, anyway, and definitely not by hugging that close to the wall. that's what friends and family are for, i think. they're there to stand behind you and call out directions to let you know where you should be moving. and also, to remind you that, sometimes, you need to take a step back so that you can see the bigger picture, and readjust accordingly. or maybe it's so you can see that maybe you're hanging things a lot straighter than you think you are. and there's always God, who's there to let you know that whether you're hanging straight or crooked, He loves you still and He's going to make sure that you get it right in the end. and you know, that's a really good feeling.
so i may be jobless, single and broke, but life is still pretty awesome. really awesome.