roaring twenties
well, another year.
i'm turning 20 in less than 10 minutes. i'm not sure how i feel about this. my last year as a teen has been a roller coaster ride, to say the least, and while i've learned a lot, i don't quite feel that i have "grown up" enough to say that i am...twenty.
twenty. it just sounds so...old. but really, it's not, i guess. having managed to stay alive for 2 decades without any serious damaging, physically or otherwise, is kinda nice. i feel that i've learned a lot in the past year. academics have sort of been kicking my butt a little bit, but i'm managing passable grades. a higher GPA would be nice, but there are so many things that are much more important.
like people. i think i've learned more from the people i've come across than i have in any textbook, in any classroom. i spent most of this year wishing i had someone special, and after a year of being single (minus, let's say, 2 weeks)...nothing's changed. both of my previous boyfriends have since moved on, and you know what? more power to them. as much as i try not to care, i can't deny that, in some small way, i still like to know what's going on with them. it's sort of funny, b/c i do feel a little bit jealous, a little bit bitter, and also sort of like...why can't i find someone? is there something terribly wrong with me??
but then i realized how narrow-minded i was being. i am so, so lucky already to be surrounded by the people i am. KT is the best friend i could ever ask for...i probably would have died in a little hole somewhere without her. my cousins are so funny and supportive, and when i'm with them, i know that there will always be a place for me in that little group. my family (yueldermann) is nuts. and CHS folk too--like brittany, shawna, colette--are wonderful...i love how we are able to not talk for months at a time, and then pick up as if nothing's changed at all. and i am so glad to be friends with some of the most amazing people at WM...rolfe, DC, kwah folk, just to name a few. there's so much good stuf going on, how can i really stay sad for long? what right at all do i have to complain?? i think i will try to be more positive this year.
last year started off with a crash. this year's going to be better. after all, it can't get any worse, right? must keep thinking positively. i heard that pessimists have shorter lifespans than optimists, and frankly, i am not ready to die yet.
and so, we shall end with a quote:
elleen: okay guys, i'm going go get some fruit. you guys want anything?
jimmy: do you have any fish?
i'm turning 20 in less than 10 minutes. i'm not sure how i feel about this. my last year as a teen has been a roller coaster ride, to say the least, and while i've learned a lot, i don't quite feel that i have "grown up" enough to say that i am...twenty.
twenty. it just sounds so...old. but really, it's not, i guess. having managed to stay alive for 2 decades without any serious damaging, physically or otherwise, is kinda nice. i feel that i've learned a lot in the past year. academics have sort of been kicking my butt a little bit, but i'm managing passable grades. a higher GPA would be nice, but there are so many things that are much more important.
like people. i think i've learned more from the people i've come across than i have in any textbook, in any classroom. i spent most of this year wishing i had someone special, and after a year of being single (minus, let's say, 2 weeks)...nothing's changed. both of my previous boyfriends have since moved on, and you know what? more power to them. as much as i try not to care, i can't deny that, in some small way, i still like to know what's going on with them. it's sort of funny, b/c i do feel a little bit jealous, a little bit bitter, and also sort of like...why can't i find someone? is there something terribly wrong with me??
but then i realized how narrow-minded i was being. i am so, so lucky already to be surrounded by the people i am. KT is the best friend i could ever ask for...i probably would have died in a little hole somewhere without her. my cousins are so funny and supportive, and when i'm with them, i know that there will always be a place for me in that little group. my family (yueldermann) is nuts. and CHS folk too--like brittany, shawna, colette--are wonderful...i love how we are able to not talk for months at a time, and then pick up as if nothing's changed at all. and i am so glad to be friends with some of the most amazing people at WM...rolfe, DC, kwah folk, just to name a few. there's so much good stuf going on, how can i really stay sad for long? what right at all do i have to complain?? i think i will try to be more positive this year.
last year started off with a crash. this year's going to be better. after all, it can't get any worse, right? must keep thinking positively. i heard that pessimists have shorter lifespans than optimists, and frankly, i am not ready to die yet.
and so, we shall end with a quote:
elleen: okay guys, i'm going go get some fruit. you guys want anything?
jimmy: do you have any fish?