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Having a question of character, and other ..wandering thoughts.
Like...Am I really who I think?
Probably not, I run around trying to be really ever so nice, and always in a happy mood.
But I really wanted to be depressingly sad :) and a jerk to be around. And I'm probably not nice , not as nice as I like to think.
I wish it was as easy for me to say the mean things that you can.
But no, I always watch my tongue, always try not to say something I'm going to regret, that I can't take back. It's a shame that doesn't apply to when I actually do things. I don't think before acting. I go out on whims, I take chances and make myself sick. Sick at the thought of everything. And now awkward. That's all I feel is awkward.
So I guess you're right, I'm a screw-up. Cause that's what I do. And it's what I've always done. Honestly, looking back on everything- yes. Not just now but always.
I think I'm crazy...mmhmm..
You can't go home again.
Like...Am I really who I think?
Probably not, I run around trying to be really ever so nice, and always in a happy mood.
But I really wanted to be depressingly sad :) and a jerk to be around. And I'm probably not nice , not as nice as I like to think.
I wish it was as easy for me to say the mean things that you can.
But no, I always watch my tongue, always try not to say something I'm going to regret, that I can't take back. It's a shame that doesn't apply to when I actually do things. I don't think before acting. I go out on whims, I take chances and make myself sick. Sick at the thought of everything. And now awkward. That's all I feel is awkward.
So I guess you're right, I'm a screw-up. Cause that's what I do. And it's what I've always done. Honestly, looking back on everything- yes. Not just now but always.
I think I'm crazy...mmhmm..
You can't go home again.