i'm sick of people...

[evilone_666]

i hate them all....i want anyone that knows or thinks they know about me to know I'm not a lesbian I am not gay and i will not change my mind to avoid comments in the hall way. This is the way i am. If you don't like it fuck off , b/c there is nothing at all i can do about it... i wish i could but i can't. I just want a normal life and i don't want to be known as a slut or a lesbian or anything else like that...I'm tired of rumors and i'm tired of twisting the story! I'm tired of it! And now not only i have to go through this shit, but so does my girlfriend! I hate it! And it's all my fault b/c i fucking trusted you people with my life!!! You are suposed to be my fucking friends! What's wrong with you?!?! Why can't you learn to keep our friendship between us...?!?!?I need someone to talk to why can't it be you?!?!? Why do i have to live like this?!?! I've been hiding forever and when i finally pop and tell you what i need to tell you , what i need to talk to you about you fuck everything up!!! I hate you! I'm tired of it! I might hold it in and act like everthings ok but you know it's not! YOU KNOW I TRUST YOU! WHY THE HELL WOULD YOU DO THIS! ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME?!?! ARE YOU TRYING TO DRIVE ME CRAZY!?!?!? **Cries**! what the fuck am i suposed to do now? I have no one to talk to. My sister has me and so do my friends and i have no one. I can't talk to my girlfriend b/c i can't get ahold of her and she won't call me...i'm just so pissed off i can't trust anyone and as far as I'm concerned i now have no friends except for nat which she might get scared but such a shocking entry but plz don't nat b/c i have no one else to talk to anymore so ...don't worry...I'm not gonna hit on you , but i hope you won't try to block it out. I mean if i scares you then .... but you've always been a good listener and you've always had good advise....youre the only friend i've ever had that actually makes me feel better...i'm just so sad and pissed off i can't even talk that's why I'm on my journal and also for that one little reason that my girlfriend won't call me.... **cries**
Byes...
ErICa
ps. sorry i couldn't call...i had to use my girlfriends phone to call you but i obviously didn't get a chance to talk to her...