Alone when I break into pieces
I am not sure how I feel now. Too many feelings at once. One moment I am angry then happy then completely ad. But I always feel alone. I wanited for things to get better .. I mean its not that it got worse or anything but everything is staying the same. Everyone else is moving on yet I am still stuck. I feel like a selfish bitch for what I did to one friend and yet I don't want to fix it this time. Maybe if I asked someone to help me they could but I never was good at asking for help when I don't even no what to fix. Everything is messed up in my mind. I have my freak out moment were I completely go nuts write the same words over and over again. It scares me sometimes.I wish I knew what to do.