Wish he knew
I can't stand this no more. I don't know what the hell I should do. I mean I really like his guy but I am so freaking scared to really let him know. He knows that last year yes I did like him. But I don't think he gets how much I really like him now.In a way I wished he did. I wish I could just tell him straight up but I am so scared I will get hurt in the end. That wat happened to me and JJ. Every dream I have he is in them. Either its the one where my parents meet him and say even tho he is not compltely white they like him or the one where he tells me he likes me and kisses me. This has never happened to me and I don't no if I can do it. I am just scared that I will be hurt. It was hard enough with JJ bu this guy is the reason that I did not go back to JJ.But noone sees this. I wish he could just see it. I know that last year he liked me cause he told me but he never told me how he feels now. If he could have just told me how he feels now maybe I would not be so scared to ask him out. But sadly it's never that easy for me. Always for everyone else nut not me.