Update
Wow. I haven't made a single post on Livejournal in two and a half years (I moved over to Blogger...where I still don't post very often). And my last post was a very angsty post about how much I loved Scott, and how I knew it didn't matter because he was never going to feel the same way, so I might as well just move on with my life.
And now we're engaged.
It's actually been kind of nice to go back and read over my old posts about our relationship. Because as much anguish as he put me through back then...I still remember those days as being some of the most wonderful in my life. Even when he hurt me, even when I was angry with him...I still loved him. Maybe I had some sixth sense all along telling me to hold on, telling me that he really WAS my prince charming and that if I was just patient enough, things would work out. And they have.
He is wonderful. I'm sure that some of my friends who were close enough to hear all my angst would wonder why I gave him a second chance, but seriously. He's risen above all the emotional baggage that kept us apart in the first place, and he's an amazing, wonderful man now. I never really thought I would know unconditional, romantic love like this, and sometimes I get all giggly and feel like I'm nineteen again, swooning over him onstage. But it's amazing.
Anyway, I doubt I even still have any friends out there who would read this, but in case you're someone I haven't talked to in the past two and a half years...life is fantastic.
And if you're Kate (since I think she's the most likely person to still be here), I love you and I VERY much want to come to see you. Maybe sometime in the spring?
And now we're engaged.
It's actually been kind of nice to go back and read over my old posts about our relationship. Because as much anguish as he put me through back then...I still remember those days as being some of the most wonderful in my life. Even when he hurt me, even when I was angry with him...I still loved him. Maybe I had some sixth sense all along telling me to hold on, telling me that he really WAS my prince charming and that if I was just patient enough, things would work out. And they have.
He is wonderful. I'm sure that some of my friends who were close enough to hear all my angst would wonder why I gave him a second chance, but seriously. He's risen above all the emotional baggage that kept us apart in the first place, and he's an amazing, wonderful man now. I never really thought I would know unconditional, romantic love like this, and sometimes I get all giggly and feel like I'm nineteen again, swooning over him onstage. But it's amazing.
Anyway, I doubt I even still have any friends out there who would read this, but in case you're someone I haven't talked to in the past two and a half years...life is fantastic.
And if you're Kate (since I think she's the most likely person to still be here), I love you and I VERY much want to come to see you. Maybe sometime in the spring?