thoughts
i'm thinking that he is avoiding me because he knows what he gave up. He knows he is in the wrong, and if i am around then he feels guilty about it. makes sense in my head, i don't know that it makes sense here.
i miss him so much, yet at the same time i am so like ARG! frustrated with him and what he did and how he did it. if he wantedto do it, fine, but don't spread the lies, don't avoid me, and come see your daughter.
dad will be here friday and then we are gone. time seems to be running away with everything. i can't believe i have been home nearly a month and yet nothing. No closure, no stuff, no further from what i came home to. i am still upset that he is being so hypocritical. that is such bullshit. Just at least tell me to my face that it is over and no chance you are going to change back to who you were and come home. :'(
Lots going through my head, but i need to actually sleep tonight. maybe a rockstar will get me through tomorrow and all the bs i have to do.
after being on jenni's comp the past couple of weeks, i went back to my laptop and oh boy, i need to get a giant widescreen monitor. my laptop screen is so puny i have to squint to see it. lol. at least that is how it feels.
i miss him so much, yet at the same time i am so like ARG! frustrated with him and what he did and how he did it. if he wantedto do it, fine, but don't spread the lies, don't avoid me, and come see your daughter.
dad will be here friday and then we are gone. time seems to be running away with everything. i can't believe i have been home nearly a month and yet nothing. No closure, no stuff, no further from what i came home to. i am still upset that he is being so hypocritical. that is such bullshit. Just at least tell me to my face that it is over and no chance you are going to change back to who you were and come home. :'(
Lots going through my head, but i need to actually sleep tonight. maybe a rockstar will get me through tomorrow and all the bs i have to do.
after being on jenni's comp the past couple of weeks, i went back to my laptop and oh boy, i need to get a giant widescreen monitor. my laptop screen is so puny i have to squint to see it. lol. at least that is how it feels.