flowers in toilet
these are the roses that he gave me for valentines day. i spent forever getting them to dry proper and still look amazing. this is how i came home to them. he claims it wasn't him who did it.
the house looks horrible. there are maggots and roaches everywhere. if i actually posted pictures you would probably puke.
today was odd. i went to his work to get the car washed. they were all talking shit and kirk was rummaging through the car and so i walked outside and he stopped. oh darn, i WAS watching. what a shame. he held kassaundra after i asked if he would like to and he said OF COURSE., while i was making sure everything was still in the car and he was showing her off to everyone and super proud and telling her that daddy loves her.
i was like if you love her you would come see her. he was like if i have time. i told him that if i can balance work, dating and my family then he could too. he said i never actually said i was dating someone, i said whatever. i asked if he was going to come to the counseling appt and he said he was. i offered to give him the appt card so he wouldn't forget and he said he didn't need it. so w/e.
he confuses the shit out of me. i know he can't talk to me in front of anyone because he has spread such lies anything he says to me is going to contradict what he said to anyone else so he is avoiding talking to me when anyone is around, but won't be alone with me so we can talk.
ugh! and he still has all my stuff. and half of the crib pieces. etc
on a better note i am going out with tiny again tonight. yay. tiny is fun to hang out with and an amazing friend. he is a super flatterer though. this morning i got a text "Kassaundra will grow up 2 know of ur kindness & compassion. And also of ur abilities 2 b a mother & provider. She will inherit ur strength & heart. -Tiny". and this from yesterday, "I think that u have a great personaliy, smart, funny, beautiful eyes, awesome smile. Just 2 name a few things. -Tiny". I don't honestly see any of that in myself and i don't see how he sees it. maybe its just cuz i have been so depressed and stressed lately. who knows. tiny is a revrend or pastor or minister w/e they are called. hehe. he is always full of good listening and advice. kinda sucks how he moved back here and now i am moving away.
the house looks horrible. there are maggots and roaches everywhere. if i actually posted pictures you would probably puke.
today was odd. i went to his work to get the car washed. they were all talking shit and kirk was rummaging through the car and so i walked outside and he stopped. oh darn, i WAS watching. what a shame. he held kassaundra after i asked if he would like to and he said OF COURSE., while i was making sure everything was still in the car and he was showing her off to everyone and super proud and telling her that daddy loves her.
i was like if you love her you would come see her. he was like if i have time. i told him that if i can balance work, dating and my family then he could too. he said i never actually said i was dating someone, i said whatever. i asked if he was going to come to the counseling appt and he said he was. i offered to give him the appt card so he wouldn't forget and he said he didn't need it. so w/e.
he confuses the shit out of me. i know he can't talk to me in front of anyone because he has spread such lies anything he says to me is going to contradict what he said to anyone else so he is avoiding talking to me when anyone is around, but won't be alone with me so we can talk.
ugh! and he still has all my stuff. and half of the crib pieces. etc
on a better note i am going out with tiny again tonight. yay. tiny is fun to hang out with and an amazing friend. he is a super flatterer though. this morning i got a text "Kassaundra will grow up 2 know of ur kindness & compassion. And also of ur abilities 2 b a mother & provider. She will inherit ur strength & heart. -Tiny". and this from yesterday, "I think that u have a great personaliy, smart, funny, beautiful eyes, awesome smile. Just 2 name a few things. -Tiny". I don't honestly see any of that in myself and i don't see how he sees it. maybe its just cuz i have been so depressed and stressed lately. who knows. tiny is a revrend or pastor or minister w/e they are called. hehe. he is always full of good listening and advice. kinda sucks how he moved back here and now i am moving away.