I found some of my old poems....

[evillilmunster]

http://www.expage.com/psychoticgodess On that page it can take you to other pages it'll say "more poems..." and that'll lead u to "Goddess Volcano" I can't seem to get my page "The Darkness" working but if i ever get it fixed ill be posting it. I havent wrote anymore for a

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some of it can be misleading

[evillilmunster]

I was never abused as a child everyone gets their spankings for being bad and i never really got into too much trouble so those were few, but i did have a bit of hatred for my father for a few reasons. But that never caused my poems, I try to think of what others are going through, I try to see through other ppls eyes, I want to express what everyone wants to say because they hide it inside because they are scared. But I've been used, by friends who care more about themselves than me because all i try to do is help. For example my best friend from kindergarden till 9th grade ruined our relationship by lying to me, she stoped trusting in me for some reason when all i did was ever listen to her problems and try to help, so I ended it. Then in junior high alll the girl friends I made were too self absorbed and I knew there was somthing different about me and they kinda just said i was wierd and they'd ask why i do certain things. So once I hit high school I started to blossom into the person I wanted to be all along, unconforming felt good, even though dressing different and dying your hair is the fad right now so i kinda feel like i went back into my caocoon. Im lost. I guess that succeeding in elementary school kinda just worked its way down to failure the older i got. I wish I could start over, I'd learn to depend on myself more.

hey!

[evillilmunster]

I know I haven't seen you online yet,Misha, and I know you work, so maybe you could give me somewhat of a time that i might be able to catch you online, Im usually on late at night because my little sister is on it 24/7 even if theres no one to talk to her she yells if i sign off her s/n. And I know tomorrow is Sunday and hardly anyone works on sunday and its a good sleep in day so ill prolly be on anytime in the afternoon and later at night but if u happen to specify a time i can beat mysister up and steal the computer back.

Hope to talk to you soon :)

Re: hey!

[mishavv]

I will try to keep my AIM open today...but I will be afk for some time. Sean and I may take Andrea out somewhere...not sure though. He has been on the phone for up wards of an hour...not like him to be so talkative...hehehe. Anyhow...hope to talk to you soon. :)

Re: hey!

[mishavv]

Leave me a message if you see my AIM open...regardless of if I have an away message or not. I really wanna chat with ya...I have been keeping my AIM open all day today.