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i went to a little dive bar with a amanda & my sister & jim last night. i feel like crap today & i only had beer & two shots of jeager (sp) bombs. we played those little game things that are on the bar. they have trivia & whatnot. im addicted. then today i realize that i should start my peoriod any day now. i looked at the calender & im 5 fuckin days late! im freaking out a little. i dont even feel like im going to start. i dont have cramps & i dont want chocolate & im not yelling or crying. i excercise every day & maybe thats messed it up? i also dont realy eat much, & i wonder if that could do something. pleeeeaase let it be that... please. im not having another baby any time soon. im just not going to do it. pregnancy is way too hard on me. im not meant for it. jesus christ, milk just stopped coming out of my boobs like a month ago or something. plus, ive just started to get used to not passing out & vomiting at the same time when i stand up... & quite frankly, i like it. i dont want to have an abortion ether. it doesnt matter. im not going to think about it, cause im not pregnant!