Well fuck!
12:03 PM 3/16/10 · Just got off the phone with 
Warlock. Was more than a litle surprised, as much that he was calling as he was so late, but that went out of my head quick. He was calling to tell me that
Jiji killed herself today. That she jumped off a bridge.
Given how suddenly and unexpectedly I was feeling sick earlier today I can't help but wonder...
I'm still a little in shock, though it hasn't been a full 10 minutes yet so that's hardly surprising. I can really only attribute this to two things inparticular, one of which being health related (if Obama's health care had already passed that might've been less an issue) and the other being that fuckwit she married way back when. They've been spearated a long stretch and I had no idea what an abusive fuck he was during and how he's been almost as much of a pain since they were been divorced...
...I'm sure there were other reasons but I'm fairly certain it can all be traced back to either of those two facts.
Last couple years
Jiji and I have been texting up a storm. As much as making up for lost time, she left the area quite a ways back, as to vent and occasionally exchange funnies. I'm not saying this suicide was completely out of left field, she jokingly, at bad points to be sure, said she might a couple times in the last month or so, but it still seems so sudden.
1:41 PM 3/16/10 · Had a little interrupt there, which I only mention as it kind of helped. While writing the above I got a call from
Suzi. Not unusual for her to call so late so she vented for a bit, after making me feel better for the loss of my friend, and while she went on about her stuff I felt the shock ease away and the full effect of
Jiji's death hit me.
Least I think ot has.
Thinking I'm gonna leave a brief mention of this over in
Bondage·A·GoGo. Was planning on going this week but I'm not sure I'm up to it. As to why the mention, that's where I first met
Jiji and she was very much a part of that place for a very long time. Could be others there that, like me, didn't hear through any other means.
Warlock called me specifically because he was worried that the usual channels would overlook telling me.
10:19 PM 3/16/10 · Just before I fell asleep last night a particular memory flitted through my conciousness. Made a point to try and remember it to add.
Here we go.
Early February I texted most everybody I know, that're cool with mass texts, if it was going to Valentine's Day or Quirky Alone day for them. In
Jiji's case she didn't choose either answer, like many around that time of year she was in a funk for not having anyone. So, I did as I usually do and tried to cheer her up. Conversation got to a happier and more ridiculous level before too long (lottsa ROFLs & LOLs) and she said it might help if I mailed her a box of chocolates.
Thing is I thought she was joking...up until the 15th of February whereupon she texted how sad she was not to have gotten it in the mail from me. I felt really bad about that and made a point to send her one soon. Don't know if I was planning a special day or her next birthday or whatever...
...but now I can't.
Warlock. Was more than a litle surprised, as much that he was calling as he was so late, but that went out of my head quick. He was calling to tell me that
Jiji killed herself today. That she jumped off a bridge.
Given how suddenly and unexpectedly I was feeling sick earlier today I can't help but wonder...
I'm still a little in shock, though it hasn't been a full 10 minutes yet so that's hardly surprising. I can really only attribute this to two things inparticular, one of which being health related (if Obama's health care had already passed that might've been less an issue) and the other being that fuckwit she married way back when. They've been spearated a long stretch and I had no idea what an abusive fuck he was during and how he's been almost as much of a pain since they were been divorced...
...I'm sure there were other reasons but I'm fairly certain it can all be traced back to either of those two facts.
Last couple years
Jiji and I have been texting up a storm. As much as making up for lost time, she left the area quite a ways back, as to vent and occasionally exchange funnies. I'm not saying this suicide was completely out of left field, she jokingly, at bad points to be sure, said she might a couple times in the last month or so, but it still seems so sudden.
1:41 PM 3/16/10 · Had a little interrupt there, which I only mention as it kind of helped. While writing the above I got a call from
Suzi. Not unusual for her to call so late so she vented for a bit, after making me feel better for the loss of my friend, and while she went on about her stuff I felt the shock ease away and the full effect of
Jiji's death hit me.
Least I think ot has.
Thinking I'm gonna leave a brief mention of this over in
Bondage·A·GoGo. Was planning on going this week but I'm not sure I'm up to it. As to why the mention, that's where I first met
Jiji and she was very much a part of that place for a very long time. Could be others there that, like me, didn't hear through any other means.
Warlock called me specifically because he was worried that the usual channels would overlook telling me.
10:19 PM 3/16/10 · Just before I fell asleep last night a particular memory flitted through my conciousness. Made a point to try and remember it to add.
Here we go.
Early February I texted most everybody I know, that're cool with mass texts, if it was going to Valentine's Day or Quirky Alone day for them. In
Jiji's case she didn't choose either answer, like many around that time of year she was in a funk for not having anyone. So, I did as I usually do and tried to cheer her up. Conversation got to a happier and more ridiculous level before too long (lottsa ROFLs & LOLs) and she said it might help if I mailed her a box of chocolates.
Thing is I thought she was joking...up until the 15th of February whereupon she texted how sad she was not to have gotten it in the mail from me. I felt really bad about that and made a point to send her one soon. Don't know if I was planning a special day or her next birthday or whatever...
...but now I can't.