Maturity through Obscurity

[evilgoodguy]

I feel sometimes that some of those around me will never mature. I see what they do and say, and wonder if it will ever change. Maybe this is the thought process exactly that has brought me thus far, and continues to expand my views. I constantly analyze things, and thus am intrigued, and often confused, a large majority of the day. But through the one out of ten realizations a day that I make, the few that come clearly. It is as is a new life has begun. Thus I feel that I have gained a bit of knowledge from this aloof state that I choose to remain in. When I stop to survey my surroundings, and try to partake in what is really going on around me, not just what I choose to go on, I begin to realize how little I know. I realize the multitude of arrays that are flying by me, and even smacking me in the face, that I will never be aware of. Yet somehow, through this knowledge of ignorance, I feel I am maturing. I just hope that someday those people around me will do the same. Someday, we will all look around and think, what am I doing, do i really want to spend my life doing that? Hopefully we will all reach this at an early stage in our life, but I fear the worst. The interesting item in this overview of my thoughts is this. With some sort of realization of my surroundings, it would seem a utopia for myself has been reached. I am happy with all around me, and with myself in most cases. I hold no regrets, I merely live remembering those situations I feel I could have surpassed with greater honor, thus I may not falter again. But then would it be utopia, if I had another revelation, if I learned a bit more about myself and my surroundings? It would seem the latter is indeed a utopia, but the first, sounds more like an illusion. And then the final realization of this stage of realizations. To live life happily, one must maintain this state of illusion. What good is it to live life in worry, when it is just as simple to live life in happiness. Thus I return to those around me that I deem as lost. Regret is relative, I hold no regret because none of my actions have done anything of value as far as I know. But if someone has a realization such as mine late in life, then the fact that their actions have indeed lead to nothing of value, may trouble them greatly. And instead of learning from this priceless lesson, and passing it down to others, some will try and compensate for their lost time. So wake up, think about where your going and what you are doing. Enjoy your new eyes, for a sight has just begun that you may have never imagined.
I hope you enjoyed this post more-so than the latest few posts Ben W.