From "
100 Acorns: 100 days of conceptual instructions by Yoko Ono"
Imagine your friends being without the baggage
you know them by.
See how you feel about them then.
a) You can relate to them better.
b) They cease to be interesting.
Think which of their baggage you are connected to.
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This brings me to a point of contemplation where I can't think any more. I sometimes lament my imperfections to Jeff, and he says I wouldn't be very interesting if I were perfect. Then I think of my friends, and wonder if I would know them without their faults. Then it brings up the very Buddhist question of what the Self is.
This is the second day of the rest of my life, counting from an ephiphany that made me realize I cannot continue doing all the stressful, destructive things I do: judging, controlling, wearing masks, causing myself unhappiness even in small ways by working too much of being involved with chaotic friends. These choices are an addiction every bit as real as alcohol or narcotics. They are tough to quit. The process makes me very anxious. I kind of want a cigarette.