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I just watched the Passion of the Christ. And I'm not sure how to feel. It was such a hard movie to watch, I felt lonely. The awkward silence during the show didn't help much. I was worried that I would recieve a religious talk at the end. Finally when I saw Jesus reserect and the light in his eyes reflect the sun, I felt a sunken feeling in my stomach. Then the awkward moment came and my dad asked "what did you think of that Erin?" and as I realized I couldn't bullshit an answer, all I could say was "it was gory." My mom sensing my discomfort replied to the same question answering "it was graphic." It was funny how niether of them wanted to say anything religious, in fear of the uneasiness that would fill the room. Tears formed in my eyes as I realized how lost I feel. It's hard to watch that show and know that I can't believe anything at this point in my life. I just have no proof. Last fall my whole world fell apart and since then, I've been left here all alone.