I think things will be alright...for once..
Just got back from Kourtney's house and her smiling when receiving my Christmas gifts made me smile, both inside and out. For the first time in a LONG time, being without Kourtney in the sense of a relationship has made me happy. For the first time I can truly accept our friendship wholeheartedly and look upto her as a sister. Last night, I pretty much stayed up with her watching the Stewie movie and the Golden Girls season 3 set I got her. We spent most of the time hitting eachother playfully, if not tickling eachother to hell. It's like we never broke up, but at the same time, it's in our heads. There were times, I admit, I wanted to kiss her...but I mostly, playfully, kissed her cheek hard and made her give me a yucky face, hehe. I did cuddle with her a couple of times, but only cause she's a pillow-replacement, not in the sense that I was coming onto her. Not 1 fight the whole time I was there...which is a first.
I think things will finally be alright :) I still love her, as she was my fiance for a year and a half, but I can accept being a great friend if she'll take me as that. But now I call her my sis and I'll tear a new asshole into the dickface that treats her like shit :)
Got no work today, but need to go pick my paycheck up later and run some errands. Need sleep first! All for now..
P.S.
I'm really happy...Kourtney's fault :D
I think things will finally be alright :) I still love her, as she was my fiance for a year and a half, but I can accept being a great friend if she'll take me as that. But now I call her my sis and I'll tear a new asshole into the dickface that treats her like shit :)
Got no work today, but need to go pick my paycheck up later and run some errands. Need sleep first! All for now..
P.S.
I'm really happy...Kourtney's fault :D