Its interesting how things turn out
Life is odd at best many things have happened since i last posted in here i moved from phoenix to Idaho to live with my mom leaving another life behind me brought my dog with me and that was about it my father died in 07 it was very difficult for me to get over and deal with i spent a long time trying to i think i have a firm grasp on that now though i do still cry some times when i think about all the things he will never get to see. I have a new love though not really new i have always loved him but never knew he felt the same way so i never expressed my feelings afraid of being denied and turned down or worst left out of his life completely i always assumed he just saw me as a little sister more then anything. How wrong i was but i dont regret anything i have lived and learned so much and grown into a woman life is still frustrating as ever but im learning day by day to deal with it better and ever love it at times. I work at a theater now and im working on getting all the things i missed when i moved to phoenix pretty much working on getting my life together. Me and Bobby didn't work out my card reading that said we would be together for five years was right on the mark but instead of another woman taking him from me it was the woman who i would become taking me away from him. It wasn't just that though Roben helped a lot hes a friend i have been talking to on line for a very long time who i have always trusted and the love of my life. I had been unhappy and depressed for so long in phoenix i disconnected myself from my feelings blocking them out almost entirely i was walking around with a proverbial mask on that i had forgotten about and Roben reminded me of who i was what i wanted and what i was trying to do i will forever be grateful to him for reminding me of who i am. Hes special to me like no one else in my life has ever been. My mother came and got me from phoenix with her friend josh and i have been living in Idaho since December of 09 I have not made any friends here yet though im starting to since i started work there are a few people that i like but most of who i work with are teenagers and i have little to nothing in common with them. I dont fancy i will stay here for more then a few years before moving else where but i would at least like to get school started and a car.