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Goddamn it, starting looking at old posts, to see what i was doing during past Christmas's. A lot of bitching about shitty girlfriends and my job and such. I seemed pretty happy around 2007 (ten goddamn fucking years ago what the hellllll) and it just kinda kept going downhill. A lot of "Hey, derpty derp, I'll be debt free soon and I can quit my job and live off grid" and then I go and change my plans for a girl and it all goes to shit. And then when they're done fucking me over, I'm back to trying to get my life together. Gaahhh, Did I just waste 10 years of my fucking life?? Here I am, trying to get out of debt, and away from this job, every damn year! But at least now I got no girls, I have a house where I can work on shit, and I have no super expensive projects coming up. Still have lots of projects, but they all have a pay off, and basically I just need time to do them. I'm actually paying off about $2500 in debt this month, which will be nice, and hopefully if i get this car running, another $200o or so next month. As long as nothing fucks me, I can pay down close to $1000 a month, more if I can get more salvaged vehicles or get some repair jobs. Was hoping to be debt free by summer, but I'm not sure i can pull that off. We'll see. I keep saying "next year I'll quit golfland and spend a few months back home" and according to lj I've been saying that for about 5 years and I never do it. I'm thinking even if i'm not debt free this summer, I should still just fucking do it and fly by the seat of my pants. other wise I'll keep saying next year, next year, and suddenly one of my parents will be dead, and I'll be super pissed at myself. Maybe just take the wagon for 2 or 3 months, come back, work some more, and take the rv net year. No more parasitic girlfriends!!!!