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oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck. i'm bawling now. this fucking sucks and i can't handle it. WHY THE FUCK AM I THE LAST TO USUALLY FEEL THESE EMOTIONS AND BE HIT SO FUCKING HARD WITH THEM?!?!
it finally hit me in such a huuuge wave that most of my friends are leaving or have already left. for the longest time i held up, when everyone else was flipping out about it...but now...
it's just scary now. i went through grammar school virtually friendless...and i ended high school with so many friends. even over the summer i made more. but now they are going. and i freaked out. i mean, yes a lot of my friends are staying around here, but like my friends that i had from virtually all of high school are going. angela left for CCU. Lindsay left for UCONN. Sarah's leaving for Stonehill. Katie's leaving for Assumption.
i am not trying to underplay any of my friends by any means. i mean i have a lot of hs friends i didn't mention there and my friends i met over the summer....but i will admit (and hopefully not anger anyone...that sounds so egotistical)...those have been the most influential on me. and it sucks.
to those...i will miss you all this year. it's going to be a looong and strange year here. lol. and to all my friends still here, i plan on spending as much time as i can with you. because i don't want to risk any of my other friends going away from me.
in the words of mark cohen: "Where am I? Oh...I'm here....nowhere."
it finally hit me in such a huuuge wave that most of my friends are leaving or have already left. for the longest time i held up, when everyone else was flipping out about it...but now...
it's just scary now. i went through grammar school virtually friendless...and i ended high school with so many friends. even over the summer i made more. but now they are going. and i freaked out. i mean, yes a lot of my friends are staying around here, but like my friends that i had from virtually all of high school are going. angela left for CCU. Lindsay left for UCONN. Sarah's leaving for Stonehill. Katie's leaving for Assumption.
i am not trying to underplay any of my friends by any means. i mean i have a lot of hs friends i didn't mention there and my friends i met over the summer....but i will admit (and hopefully not anger anyone...that sounds so egotistical)...those have been the most influential on me. and it sucks.
to those...i will miss you all this year. it's going to be a looong and strange year here. lol. and to all my friends still here, i plan on spending as much time as i can with you. because i don't want to risk any of my other friends going away from me.
in the words of mark cohen: "Where am I? Oh...I'm here....nowhere."