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well....it's done. i dunno what feels worse...the fact that i broke up with him because of the fact that i need something more tangible...or the fact that i feel barely any regret for it. does that make me a bad person? People have been telling me no...but i'm not so sure. But i'm also sorry, i was told he gave up everything for me and took that out on me. yes, you may have done that for me....but you made that decision, not me. i know that may sound heartess...but trust me...it's not. so thanks...thanks for taking everything i said out of context. you took what i was asking for as greedy and as if i directly planned to destroy you. maybe that's why i feel barely regretful. maybe it's the fact that i can't deal with your over reactions. i asked for a break, not a break up...but you didn't want to hear that. all you heard was what you wanted to hear; the masochistic ideal that the person who cared for you the most wanted to destroy you. whatever. i have the right to be mad now, not you. and this is as far as my anger goes.
goodbye ricky. i didn't want to say that but i have no choice now. hopefully you'll find someone better than me in the long run. i tried to be nice, hurting myself in the process before i could do something stupid at one point to hurt you. i just wanted a little space and you fucking made a canyon. i dunno if i'm right or wrong by now, but all i know is i'm still crying over it. so see what you want to see ricky.
and don't bother commenting on my journal, because i've seen what fighting over this does to people and i don't want to do it myself. (and don't take that offensively you 2 if you read it...i wasn't trying to insult you or anything). adios.
goodbye ricky. i didn't want to say that but i have no choice now. hopefully you'll find someone better than me in the long run. i tried to be nice, hurting myself in the process before i could do something stupid at one point to hurt you. i just wanted a little space and you fucking made a canyon. i dunno if i'm right or wrong by now, but all i know is i'm still crying over it. so see what you want to see ricky.
and don't bother commenting on my journal, because i've seen what fighting over this does to people and i don't want to do it myself. (and don't take that offensively you 2 if you read it...i wasn't trying to insult you or anything). adios.