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wow...that last entry of mine was a little over saturated with geoff. umm...yea. just wanted to clear the air (cuz i'm paranoid about this)...but i don't like geoff that way. he's a cool kid, funny as hell, but he has myk. anf they are in love. and i would never wanna ruin that.
and on another note (which actually is what this entry is about) I got a call from ricky. and even though i ahd my doubts again...I love him so much. Ricky i promise now i will never do anything to hurt that boy. for all that don't know, ricky's mom found his journal...and found out he was gay. she proceeded to show it to his grandparents (who he lived with) to tell them her son was a "fag." ricky freaked out and left to his friend's house and called me (bout a week ago) bawling and out of control. So finally he said that he should check himself into a mental hospital...and i agreed. I wanted him better.
Got a call today from ricky. I have never ever heard his voice beam the way it was today. He was laughing and joking and just having so much fun on the phone. He is getting out of the institution tomorrow and going back with his grandparents who know he can lead the life he wants. it seems everything is turning out great for him...and it made me think.
I love the boy. with all my heart now. I know i throw that phrase around a lot with guys...but this is completely different. He seems like everything i want and need. and hearing him happy today...made my heart melt. like i literally am cracking like an egg. I am so glad he called...because i was not sure i was feeling this way anymore. I can't wait to see him again. :)
RIIIIIIIIIICKY IS THE LOVE OF MY LIFE!!!
well i must be going. and the thing at the top about explaining myself...that was in response to a lj entry that prolly wasn't about me at all...but i got very paranoid and thought about it. I'm just flirty...nothin more. lol
well, lata y'all!
and on another note (which actually is what this entry is about) I got a call from ricky. and even though i ahd my doubts again...I love him so much. Ricky i promise now i will never do anything to hurt that boy. for all that don't know, ricky's mom found his journal...and found out he was gay. she proceeded to show it to his grandparents (who he lived with) to tell them her son was a "fag." ricky freaked out and left to his friend's house and called me (bout a week ago) bawling and out of control. So finally he said that he should check himself into a mental hospital...and i agreed. I wanted him better.
Got a call today from ricky. I have never ever heard his voice beam the way it was today. He was laughing and joking and just having so much fun on the phone. He is getting out of the institution tomorrow and going back with his grandparents who know he can lead the life he wants. it seems everything is turning out great for him...and it made me think.
I love the boy. with all my heart now. I know i throw that phrase around a lot with guys...but this is completely different. He seems like everything i want and need. and hearing him happy today...made my heart melt. like i literally am cracking like an egg. I am so glad he called...because i was not sure i was feeling this way anymore. I can't wait to see him again. :)
RIIIIIIIIIICKY IS THE LOVE OF MY LIFE!!!
well i must be going. and the thing at the top about explaining myself...that was in response to a lj entry that prolly wasn't about me at all...but i got very paranoid and thought about it. I'm just flirty...nothin more. lol
well, lata y'all!