And I am still socially awkward. That's what they have beer pong for...
Yeah, I know I should have updated like a month or two ago... I feel like I missed out on a lot of things. I didn't not write out of lack of wanting... but more of a lack of time or opportunity. And now that my obligatory apology is out of the way....
So. College. Everything I expected? Probably not. But not a total disappointment. I was trying not to get my hopes up. I was kinda expecting to make a million new friends and have something to do every night and everything would be totally awesome. So much for not getting my hopes up. In reality I just cut down my list of people I can hang out with significantly. Really, at first the weekends were stressful. It is hard having to call the three people you know and basically figure out what you are going to do before it happens. I feel like when I ask someone whats up, I am basically inviting myself along to do whatever it is they are doing, because I basically am. It is a lot of awkwardness, but there are a lot of good things too.
Adam is up here with me, by the grace of God. I really mean that. And without him, I might be terribly depressed. He is over all the time and basically is the reason I am not always by myself. I think I was hoping to have some sort of a social life once I moved up here, but I think I am just accepting that I suck at that crap. You know who else sucks at that too but for totally different reasons? ALYSSA!
I knew it was going to be like this when I found out she was going to be up here, but I love her and I was hoping we could become better friends. Alyssa is by far the flakiest person ever... Poor thing, I don't think she does it on purpose but it is so frustrating. It isn't like I am awesome at making plans or anything... But if I say I'll be there, I will. This weekend alone she bailed on me twice. She called me saying she was going to come over to hang out and work out and that she would be there in 20 minutes. An hour and a half later she calls me saying she is on some medicine that was giving her a stomach ache. Oh well, we make plans for the next day to work out after class. I go to class dressed to go to the gym, since I live off campus. I walk across campus to the gym, calling her the whole time. Why do I even expect her to answer? She doesn't. Of course. I ride the bike for an hour, reading a book. I go home, to which Adam had defrosted a lovely dinner... She finally calls telling me something about her charger and her phone not working. Oh well...
Today in Social Psych we learned that aggression stems from frustration, but that doesn't always mean if you're frustrated you will act aggressively. One of the times you can be frustrated and not aggressive is if you expect it. I think that is why I am not really mad that Alyssa keeps ditching me. I totally expect it from her.
- On a side note, I have completely avoided the freshmen fifteen. And I am barely working out (don't let all of that talk earlier about working out fool you....)
Right now, all I can think about is Thanksgiving. I know I should be focusing on finals that are literally around the corner. But I can't. I am DYING to go home and eaaaaaat! My problem at the moment is that I am leaving this weekend with my aunt and uncle that I am meeting up at Gainesville. That is awesome.... Adam is coming home too, with his sister and Brad. Steph is coming down with Ada and taking Stinker with her, who takes up the entire back seat. I was planning on coming home with Brad, Jess and Adam but I have just found out that Brad's truck is a three seater. So I am currently out for a ride back to Tally. Thats cool. I am fine with staying in Miami until Christmas!
Sorry it took so long (TARA) but I hope I have more time to update later on. =)
-Kristy