LIFE - According to my LiveJournal
I decided to summarize my life as of right now and save it eternally as an entry in here. I like re-reading the things I wrote and remembering that part of my life. And I would like to say that life is being pretty good to me right now.
Since soccer ended, the quality of my life has dramatically increased. It sounds weird that two hours of each day affected me so much, but honestly, I hated it. Everything about it made me dread the end of the day. I hated my teammates. They were all fake and so into "SENORITY" which is a bunch of bullshit and I am so over it. I just decided that I was going to weather through the next few games and pray that we got kicked out of districs as quickly as possible. I am a naturally competitive person and I have never honestly wanted to lose anything... But the sooner soccer was over, the sooner track would begin... So I had my fingers crossed for the entire game against MAST hoping that we would lose. When we did, it was almost too hard to disguise my excitment. Watching all my teammates cry over possibly the last soccer game of their lives and listening to all of their crap about how we came together as a team and all of the younger players were their "little sisters" was almost enough to make you puke. I love how they can all alter their perception of reality to create a decently picturesque moment. But as I said, as soon as the soccer season was over, track would start.
Now I am on the verge of begining a season where I have good friends (and and awesome boyfriend) and an honest chance to make it to States. On my own. Not on anyone else's merit or skill. A sport that I am good at. It has been awesome. Adam got a job. It sucks and he is looking for another one, but at least it pays. He gets out of work just in time to be there for 7th period Varsity Sports. I get to spend all of practice with him. I think he's going to get seriously sick of me by the end of the season. I don't know what it is, but at practice I get so annoying around him, it almost annoys me. At least I think so. I am seriously self-critical. I always get the "your so annoying" remark, and its probably the one thing I am that most conserned about around other people. I don't think Adam will ever get sick of me, but I would never want him to "put up with me". I also am getting the feeling that I am annoying Izy. I don't know, but since the Jane Eyre project we did together, I am getting the hint that he is getting kinda bugged by me. I am probably making it up, but as of right now I am going to make a mental note to not be so God-damned annoying.
Having Adam accept me so much has really effected me as a whole. I can do whatever I want around him and not be scared about what he might think about me or anything. I can honestly say that I am freely myself around him. At school now, I seem to say things I might not have been comfortable saying before. I freely say my opinions and frankly don't care who disagrees. I have a way of saying what everyone esle thinks but have enough tact to refrain from actually saying outloud. I have a feeling that some people might have developed hard feelings towards me because of this, but I don't mind. I have a good group of friends and an amazing boyfriend. And as unhealthy as people might say, Adam is really all I care about. Obviously, if everything else in my life sucked then I wouldn't be as happy... But he really is the reason I am so happy. Just knowing that there is someone out there who loves me for me, and that knows everything about me and still loves me... Not dispite of it, but because of it. It is everything I have ever wanted. The good thing is that Tara has Robby and I have Adam, and we just mutually understand that boyfriends take up all of your life.. and we will hang out when we can... And if we don't its cool too... We aren't weird in the way that we have to hang out or anything. It's real chill... But my boyfriend isn't literally my life. Just the reason I smile as often as I do.
But I do have to say... Mr. Green's class is the bane of my existance. He is the most unorthadox human-being on the face of this planet. He doesn't speak in any language that somewhat resembles English. He talks in riddles and gets upset when you don't follow his instructions... And all he does is repeat the same nonsense until he gets blue in the face. He is by far the most stubborn man I have ever met. The workload isn't unrealistic or overbearing... He just doesn't know how to teach it or how to make it come across as anything less than impossible. He also has quite a reputation at FCS. *Though at Florida Christian, reputations are easy to come by* A few years ago he was kicked out of the school for innapropriatly touching a girl in class. Not something to be taken lightly... You know... Molestation. Whatever. The school, for some reason found it acceptable to let him back in... Whether out of desperation or out of a clearing of his name or just the "forgivness found in Christ"... Whatever. But he really does have a problem. He hugs students, touches them and hes a problem understanding the limits of personal space. He has somehow found it appropriate to touch me when he speaks to me. It really makes me uncomfortable... and next time he puts his hand on me I think I'm going to rip it off....
That is all of my life that is pertainant as of yet. I might update later about other things... Maybe not. I probably will... I'm just probably going to put it on private so no one else can see. =] ... I'm HARDCORE.
- Kristy [BAMF]