Wow, I hate soccer...
So lets go on with life... The other day was Adam and my 7 months. Pretty sweet, I know. Soccer is becoming the worst part of my day. I enjoy messing around at Varsity Sports and playing then... But I get to practice and I wanna die. Between the girls on the team and sucking so bad everytime I wanna prove to Bazyler that I can play, it's hell. And then every game I play at most 20 minutes. At the Dade game I played 5. 5 minutes. I almost died. I mean, I was there every day over the summer, I went to UCF soccer camp (otherwise known as hell) and I try so hard to play 5 minutes?! I don't think so. And then he puts in Natalie Fiallo everytime he subs a forward... If you were to ever watch one o f our games, everytime she gets the ball, she ends up on her head. Don't ask me how it happens... But she is ALWAYS on the floor and any half-decent .... No, not even half-decent.... defender could take the ball from her. Passing her the ball is like passing it to the other team. It drives me insane that a freshmen is getting put in before I do, and to play the possition I want to play. He only puts me in as midfield cause everytime he sees me shoot I choke... I know I'm better than he thinks and I feel like I'm wasting my time. Everyone says if I hate it so much I should quit but I don't know.... I can't quit. Thats not how I am. I will get through this season and then probably play again next year. I just always assume it will get better. I just can't wait for track. I'm practically starting a countdown til I can start running again. Til I get to see Adam everyday. Til I can stop being the worst on the team and finally be the best at something. I might not be the best at every meet, but by the time Districs come around, you can't deny me that I'm the best on the team. I might choke at almost every other meet, but when it counts I pull through. Two inches away from States is alot of motivation and I swear I'll get it. And though running the 400 is going to be harsh, I'm going to have Adam there coaching me and I couldn't ask for a better person to do that. And I almost think that I can do it. With alot of practice, and some faith I might actually be good. Or at least half-way decent. And then Adam can stop soaking up the glory... lol... Yeah, right, That kid is a foot away from breaking the State Record. I can't wait til he does. Cause you know he will... And I really hope that things with UM will fall through. That will be BEYOND amazing.
Well, I'm done here... Maybe something amazing will happen and I'll update....